Entry 141: The Clocktower: Beginning Of The End

I have a tale to recount…

The past few days have left me in a haze

My name is Sara…and I stand here on the edge

Halloween day…

I’m here to recount what happened, over the past few days…

This…was the beginning of how it all ended…

Ren no longer had eyes…I was shocked when I first saw this…

He didn’t seem to concerned though

We stood there, on that ever raising platform and I didn’t understand it at the time…

But something in his voice should have forewarned me of the inevitable

Sara, I’m going to get you out of here…I promise…

I said nothing, only cut off part of my robe and wrapped it around Ren’s head

I didn’t want to stare into those empty eye sockets

It hurt me to see him in any pain, but I knew how scarred I was myself…

The platform stopped and I found myself staring at a cloaked figure in black

Sitting on a throne of skull and bones

I knew then, we had made it…

Here sat The Clocktower King

The air was cold, the room completely silent

He sat there motionless for a moment

It was as though we were viewing a moment frozen in time

I was soon taken by surprise

Ren jumped in front of me…for some reason I hadn’t sensed the attack

I swear the figure hadn’t moved but Ren took the brunt of the attack

His chest now had an open wound

He bled, smiling the entire time

Sara, focus! I can’t get you out of here if I’m dead too!

I nodded, he brought forth a flame and cauterized his wound

Then there was a shift in the air

An explosion of power

Screaming emanated from the walls and the throne as our attacker now stood up…

The King was a force I can barely describe

He stood and it was as if the souls of all damned in the Clocktower itself stood also

He stepped forward and the very fabric of time itself appeared to shake

The Clocktower King said nothing but a furious black energy radiated from him

He drew a sword and pointed it towards us

We prepared our scythes and launched forth

No hesitation in our attack

Our scythes met his blade and as he parried our attack

We split

Ren attacked from one side, I the other

We didn’t need to speak a word, we were in perfect synchronicity

I swore our attacks landed at the same time but somehow he was able to parry

Two sides at the same time and force us to leap back

In a split second Ren was blocked an attack

Was then punched in the gut and narrowly avoided being split into two!

Suddenly I was attacked only barely able to react

I avoided a stab from my attackers blade

Ren was already on the attack again

I tried to take advantage of this, and counterattack

The shadowy figure merely parried our attacks and launched us both back

It was like child’s play to him as we attacked again and again

We narrowly survived near death impacts several times

The hooded behemoth before us, gracefully blocking and attacking with great ease

What were we supposed to do against a foe like this?

It was as though he were merely toying with us

Ren and I ran across the circular walls dodging attack after attack

Before he launched fire, I ice, and quickly we attacked from the opposite sides

Position in such a way as so we timed a 4 way attack

It all came together so perfectly…except he absorbed the ice and flames

Forming it around him to stop our own counterattacks

We cut the wall of ice and flame in two only to find it exploded like a trap

Flying backwards I landed on the wall, looking for the King only to see

Ren stabbed through the chest, violently

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt myself turn blind with rage!

An energy I’d never had before erupted from me!

I launched off the wall, the blade was ripped from Ren’s chest

He fell to the ground, on all fours, coughing up blood

I came down with my scythe, the King dodged to the side

He counter attacked but I blocked his attack from behind with my own scythe

Half crouched between the King and Ren…

I spun and sliced but he dodged back to his throne just in time

Ren….REN!!!!!! PLEASE! PLEASE DON’T DIE ON ME!!!!!!

I expected the Clocktower King to attack again but instead he just stood there

Silently…as though he was waiting for my next attack

Perhaps he was giving me a moment to grieve…but why?

Up till this point, he had been fairly intent on attacking

S-

*coughs up blood*

Sara…I’m sorry…

No Ren…don’t be…it’s not your fault…

I felt the tears fall from my face

Ren tried to speak again but he only wound up coughing up more blood

I put my finger to his lips…

Shh…don’t struggle my friend…

Just remember…I always loved you…

A smile graced Ren’s lips and I watched as he faded away

His soul quickly absorbed into The Clocktower King’s blade

I let go of Ren’s body and turned my scythe towards my enemy…

I swear to you…if it’s with my own dying breath…

I WILL KILL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

An untamed, enormous amount of energy resonated from my body

The Clocktower King stood motionless, waiting…

I didn’t know it at the time, but deep down he was hoping

…I made good on my promise…

-The Clocktower: Beginning Of The End-

 

Author’s Note: Hey guys, apologies for the disappearance. I’ve been sick among other things. I just wanted to say there are 4 Entry’s left in this series, and apologies I wasn’t able to keep to my initial scheduling. Thank you so much for your patience and continued support. The scheduling will resume as normal from this point on. Monday-Saturday a new Entry will be posted. Just wanted to update you and I hope you enjoy the conclusion to The Clocktower. Thank you for reading! ^_^

 

Entry 140: The Clocktower: Future King?

Sitting here atop my throne

I watch the battle unfold below

Ren, having just taken a suicidal chance

Sara, handling herself quite well

Both deadlocked in battle

I ponder, could it be…Ren could become the future king?

Or perhaps…Sara, will be the first Clocktower Queen?

I sit here endlessly in pain

My suffering driving me to insanity

This place, using me as a fuel source of agony

I watch as Ren looks ahead, hoping The Kid is dead

It is not so, he doesn’t see

As long as the woman Sara fights lives

There will be no stopping The Kid

So he hangs on, struggling to survive…

He’s quite weak

I can sense him losing his grip

Just barely keeping up

Soon he’ll lose it all if Sara doesn’t fell the woman

In her own vicious battle

Time is against them both…

Soon the Clocktower will leave

Trapping these two eternally

Were there any chance of an escape

They have to end this battle before them with great haste!

Sara, I wonder now

As you fight this mere representation the Clocktower has made

Are you willing to do what it takes…are you prepared to give up everything?

That is what you will have to do, if you hope to save Ren from impending doom

You see, if you survive the battle, get to me in time…

It is then a potential decision awaits

Fell me, then which one of you takes my place?

I see you fighting with an extreme ferocity

Perhaps you will both be able to rival me?

Standing on survivals edge

You refuse to give up Ren

Though you no longer have eyes

You still fight The Kid

I’m impressed to say I think you are better blind

Maybe it’s the instinctive will to survive

Or perhaps it is your love for Sara?

Somehow though you continue to fight

Scythe to claws, a downright hellish assault

Dodging so gracefully, attack after attack

Finally finding openings

You defy the reality before you

Still, even as you have landed some cuts on The Kid

The true battle is just beginning

He is shaking The Clocktower itself

Drawing more power from my suffering

The Kid’s infinite strength

His ever increasing speed

It is drawn from me!

The Clocktower is downright evil

Using me as its infinite energy source

Never letting me die!

It strategically keeps Sara busy with a mere puppet of itself

All the while brining you Ren, closer to a permanent death

Eternal suffering!

Sara you need to hasten your attacks

Continuing to be deadlocked will only guarantee both your deaths

I root for you both…this is the closest anyone has come

To facing me

Yes, Sara push forward, look for every opening you can

Don’t let the Clocktower win!

Your strategy is impressive, drawing her near to you

Waiting for the slightest opening to strike!

I’m amazed how quickly you fly head first into a direct attack

Cutting it to pieces with your scythe

Descimating it through sheer force of will

Know though the Clocktower is merely gauging your ability now

It withholds its true power in case you survive

The true sight of power to be beheld

Should you stand before me in battle!

There you are gaining an edge

Brilliantly using your rage and focusing it in such a way

You simply stood there as lighting was sent your way

Blocking it before it even got to you

A mere thought in your mind, and a force field of energy stops everything!

I’m impressed, it is clear you’ve learned much through your suffering

Ren is still hanging on edge, however he is far less focused

He hasn’t been able to control the rage within himself

All his pain, his hate…he can’t channel it the way you do…

No REN survives because he feels he has too

Either one of you would make a brilliant future King or Queen

That’s what this place is banking on

If you survive the challenges it creates

All the suffering…

It is only too late you realize, that is its game

YES! Way to draw the Clocktower in Sara!

Snow has now ravaged the fields

A blizzard no doubt summoned from your power

I see how you focus your pain

Hoping to blind your enemy

It is sheer beauty to see you fade in and out

Blending from place to place…

Dropping bursts of energy as distraction

The Clocktower is unsure of where you are now…

I can see you no longer…

In a flash, it ends…

Your scythe through the puppets mirage…

The blizzard suddenly stops

You stabbed it in the back

A truly brilliant stealth attack!

It falls to it’s knees shattering…

Suddenly The Kid’s power is lost…

He is an exhausted husk

Ren senses this and quickly puts his scythe

Through The Kids head…

It’s over for The Kid…the fields disappear

You’ve escaped that place

You both look shocked…

Is it really over?

Indeed the prelude to the real battle is…

Rest up however, for the short time you can

The floor beneath you now raising upwards

Taking you higher than ever before…

The next stop…the end…

My throne room

The final battle is at hand

I will be unable to hold back…

The Clocktower will unleash all it’s tricks

It’s hidden attacks

One way or another it will all end…

Soon the final battle will begin…

-The Clocktower: Future King?-

Entry 139: The Clocktower: Reckoning

Laughter echoed from the halls

The castle began to break apart

I was left watching The Kid

Appearing from shadows suddenly

I stood in front of Sara

I drew my scythe

I knew anything could happen now

The laughter was completely maddening

It left shivers down my spine

It was high pitched, there were so many voices

Then all at once when only the field of dead flowers remained

Something happened to The Kid

Possessed by darkness suddenly he lost his mind

A wave of black energy radiated from him

His eyes began to glow red

The field beneath our feet shook violently

Sara, visualize the pain and suffering you endured and prepare to use that

We are going to have to fight our way out of this one…

It’s the only way!

She closed her eyes and suddenly she had her black cloak again

Scythe in hand, she opened her eyes and let out a wave of energy

I focused and did the same…

I couldn’t help but feel things were about to get violent

The woman from before laughed, looking like Sara no more

She was smiling as she seemed to imbue The Kid with power

Driving him to insanity!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Prepare to did fools! This is your reckoning!

THIS IS WHERE YOU DIE FOR GOOD! 

I was caught off guard as The Kid shot forth like lightning

Almost impaling me had it not been for Sara’s intervention

Sara resonated with power I’d not felt from her before

Looking back, she smiled

Keep light on your feet…you deal with The Kid…

I’ll deal with the bitch controlling him!

I nodded and she shot forth spinning past The Kid

Further up the field she went

I was shocked by her speed

Still, as she and the woman ahead collided

An explosion erupted!

Meanwhile me & The Kid got to begin our fight properly!

We met scythe to his claw like finger nails

It was a balancing act trying to meet each attack

While dodging him as he got a few blows through

I spun my scythe around my body deflecting attacks from several sides at once!

He came at me from the left, I struck he disappeared

Suddenly he was on the right, swing and missed again

Only for him to reappear a few seconds later in the same spot

Mere hundredths of a second after I finished my parry of his attack

I felt his claws dig into my left eye!

He violently pulled back

I screamed in agony!

My left eye dangled from it’s socket before it was quickly cut out!

I’d lost my left eye and it didn’t take long before he impaled my right one!

He was too fast as he ripped that one out with a slice and a snap!

I fell to my knees, scythe in one hand, soon removed from my weapon

After feeling pieces of flesh from my face torn off

This all happened in a hundredth of a second

Next thing I know I felt him stab me in the chest

Attempting to rip me in two and finish the fight

I instinctively reacted, simultaneously to the pain

As well as The Kid’s attack

Unleashing a wave of energy outward that sent The Kid flying back

Faster than one could blink, he was back at the attack again

I’d barely had the chance to summon my scythe in time to stop

The latest flurry of attacks, I sensed the entity

It was easy to feel it’s energy

Still it was so fast!

If this kept up, I wouldn’t last

I felt him shoot towards me

I heard the sonic boom

I was sent flying backwards upon impact!

Focus, I had to, I summoned up my energy

Erupting, and sending shock waves out

Doing so in timing with his attacks

This way I could block him while I figured out what to do next

How was I supposed to stop this vicious onslaught of attacks?

Think Ren, you are still bleeding from your eyes…

This is going to suck, but I need to cauterize the wounds…

I think I know just what I have to do…

Attack after attack, I felt him unleashing his fury upon me!

Once, twice, I blocked nice but then…

It became twenty, forty, all in the span of seconds!

Soon his attacks were getting to be one to two hundred every second or two

I was barely hanging on

The next attack flurry would have to be when I did it…

So I planted my feet…stopping my momentum and fell to my knees

I looked to the heavens and used my energy to send an attack down upon myself

Flash!

I felt the sky open above, a bolt of lightning coming down in time for him to reach me

We both took a direct hit!

I felt my eye sockets sear, my blood burn away

Then everything around me erupted!

-The Clocktower: Reckoning-

 

Entry 138: The Clocktower: Madness & Memories

I saw Ren enter the room

I got so excited…I didn’t even think

I rushed forth with open arms

REN! YOU’RE ALI-

Oof!

I felt the impact to the gut

I was left breathless, I fell to my knees

It wasn’t the punch that hurt me most

It was the idea that Ren just hit me

That meant something wasn’t right…

This man was the one I held out for

He’s the reason I held on through all the torture

The single motivation for my continuing to barely not break…

This couldn’t be happening?

*Crash*

My body ached as it bounced off the wall

I’m in shock!

I see his eyes because he pulls my chin up

He looks crazed right before he punches me in the face

I fall to the floor, I barely have time to spit out some blood…

Before…

He begins to wail on my face with his fists!

A slap here, a back hand there…sometimes he just punches me

Hit…I begin to think of him as he was before

Smack, I can’t fight back…I won’t

Pound…I feel my head bounce of the ground…

I begin to think back…to all the beautiful memories we had

The time spent talking to him

He always listened, he hugged me when I cried

I’m quite sure he thought I was friend zoning him at one time

Truth be told I was afraid, however…

I secretly was falling in love with that man

I am so sorry Ren

I’m sorry I kept these thoughts to myself

That I foolishly went head first after that kid into this place

I should’ve known you’d come after me

I was pretty sure I saw the signs back then

Punch, I’m bleeding and bruised

The monster inside Ren’s body pins me by the throat against a wall

He punches me again, starts choking me…

I can’t look him in the eyes

What did they do to you Ren?

What did they do to make you so angry?

To turn you against me?

I’m pondering these thoughts when he just holds me there and stops punching

WHAT?! YOU CAN’T LOOK AT ME YOU STUPID BITCH?!

I won’t lie to myself…that one cut deep

This isn’t my Ren…

Are you still in there, I wonder?

He throws me against the table

I’m pretty sure I know what is going to happen next…

I won’t let that happen…not with this monster…

I throw an elbow back and knock him in the eye

He staggers, and I spin and hit him in the gut

I hope you understand this hurts me too Ren…I think to myself…

Then I find my voice again…

I WON’T LET ANOTHER MONSTER RAPE ME AGAIN!

Least of all whatever they have turned you into…

Monster…MONSTER?!

YOU’RE THE FUCKING MONSTER!

YOU ARE A SPECIAL KIND OF FUCKED UP!

Taking a beating, probably enjoying it…

IS THIS SOME FUCKED UP GAME TO YOU?!

YOU MURDERED MY FAMILY YOU BITCH!

I’ll admit, I was taken by surprise with this…

He got a pretty good hit to my face as a result

I staggered but dodged the next…

Then I flipped him on his back…

Pinned him to the ground…

I tried talking to him again…

Ren, is that what you believe?

He squirms, attempting to break free of my hold

He won’t…not until I get through to him

You’ve got nothing to say then?

Fine…

Listen to the truth then

There was a man who came into a place worse than hell

He came after me, on a mere whim

He was likely concerned about my well being at one point…

Then this place got to him

The Clocktower broke him

It’s an evil thing…it breaks people, twists their emotions

The Clocktower reads you like an open book

It’s persistent

I apologize to you Ren

You know this place…it has put me through unimaginable pain

I have endured unending suffering

The stories about this place really don’t do justice to it

It is an evil beyond what words could explain

I brought you here…and for that I’m sorry again

You should know Ren…the real you

That’s the man I held out hope for

Every time I was on the edge of breaking…

I thought of you

You’re my strength now as you were then…

Please remember who you are because…

*Crying*

If you’re truly gone…

There is nothing left for me…

I suppose I should just tell you the truth…

Maybe that will bring you back to me?

I kissed Ren…right there and then

I felt myself hoping that this would turn beast to man again…

Some part of him had to come back to me…if there was any of him there still

His lips were sweet…

I broke her grasp, I threw her off of me

I wanted to beat her until she was nothing but blood and pulp…

Still, something inside of me was fighting this

WHAT’S HAPPENING TO ME?!

I walked over, ready to cave in that face…

However, as I went to lift a fist

Gazing at her naked, scarred, bruised…bleeding body

I was hit with a flood of memories…

It happened in flashes

I felt like my head was going to split as I fell to my knees

Is she telling the truth…or is she lying to me?

There she was in my memories…the first time we met

The friend zoning…

Long conversations we had…

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Crying*

Sara?

She came closer now…

SMACK! I backhanded her! I couldn’t stop myself…what was happening to me?!

I’m sorry Sara! I don’t know what’s happening! 

I DON’T HAVE CONTROL OVER MYSELF!

I got up, licked the blood from my lips

Was he telling the truth?

I believe he was…I can look into his eyes and see Ren again…

He’s terrified as he comes for me but we will find a way through this

I see Ren again…the real him…despite the actions he’s taking…

That’s all the hope I need…

He takes me by surprise, he is way stronger than before!

Something definitely isn’t right

He slams a knee into my face as I claw him in the eye and he writhes in pain!

I have to survive, but I can’t let him die either…

Ren quickly comes back for me and he is too quick

I feel myself lifted off the ground…and soon…

I’m taken across the room before being slammed on the table

I can’t fight him as he gets on top of me…

Please…not this again…I have to get through to him…

If I don’t, he will do something he’ll truly never forgive

I’m quite sure we’d both be broken then…

REN! FIGHT IT!

I can see him trying…

YOU DON’T WANT TO DO THIS!

IT’S THE DAMN CLOCKTOWER!

THEY ARE DOING TO YOU WHAT THEY DID TO ME!

DON’T LET THEM!

I can feel him fighting this…

I know he can do it…

NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I remember something as I desperately fought…

The happy memories we shared yes but…something else…

When I snapped back on The Clocktower back then…

I was able to harm the representation in that room

Through rage…however…I let it consume me

It was apparent back then and was becoming more apparent now

If I channeled that suffering, it could have a powerful effect in this place

It was the only time I was able to truly harm something in this place

I WON’T HURT HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt something snap…I had control of myself again…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!

I got off of Sara and helped her up…

The maddening laughter…it came from the walls

It haunted us!

Something was very wrong…

-The Clocktower: Madness & Memories-

Entry 137: The Clocktower: Psychological Reconditioning

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I awoke screaming in agony!

I could hear Sara’s screams…I could feel her pain

Had another hour gone by?

How many had…I’m confused…

I found myself in a dark place

Chains holding my arms above my head

I was shirtless…whatever was coming next…

It was prefaced with a sense of dread

Do you feel safe?

What? What’s that supposed t-

*Electricity crackles through chains*

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m sorry, that wasn’t the answer we were looking for…

This is the part where you are going to break

We promise you this…

Sequence 1…activating

I heard a whispering in my ear…

The voice…it was my Uncle!

NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!
NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!
NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!
NO!N-

He put his hand over my mouth and whispered into my ear…

Shhhh! It will be alright Ren

We’re going to have so much fun…

You know how much I love our secret game…

I felt myself shaking as he placed his hands on me

He did horrible things!

I could feel him slowly feeling up and down my body

He dropped my pants and then I began to cry

I kept thinking to myself…I won’t be a victim!

NOT AGAIN!

I thought it as he first went inside me

I thought it with every thrust

I focused on that singular thought!

Trying not to break as he forced something into my mouth

I couldn’t bite down now when he did what he did next

Only cry, and wait for it to end!

I tried to remind myself, this wasn’t real…

If that was the case though, why could I feel everything?!

Why did I spit out part of what I was forced to digest from him?

WHY DID I FEEL HIM INSIDE ME AGAIN?!

An hour goes by…

Who is this man?

What’s happening to me?

Another hour goes by

Why is a woman’s voice screaming every time an hour goes by?

Another hour…

Is it okay that this man smacks me around and does these things to me?

Another hour…

Where am I?

Why am I hurting…focus

I’m all alone…but it feels like someone is watching me

Was I crying?

Why?

Do You Feel Safe?

What?

*Electricity charging through chains*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Who would do this?

Why?

A fleeting image passes by…

Sara?

Sequence 2…activating

I saw Sara, she had the most twisted smile

She was on a film with a knife and blood…

The film was silent…there were bodies everywhere

This woman is named Sara

You hate her

She killed your family

The same film reel looped again and again

An hour goes by…

I hear someone screaming

The film keeps playing

Another hour…

More screams

Film replays on loop

I’m beginning to feel hate for this person in the video

Another hour…

This is Sara

I hate her

She killed my family

The film stops…

Do You Feel Safe?

Yes?

Sequence 3…activated

I feel lashes from a something striking me in the back!

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lash 1

Something on the wall is showing the words

Do you feel safe?  Then briefly flashing yes

Followed by the words

This is Sara

You hate her

She killed your family

This is then followed by silent images of her covered in blood

Smiling…

This loops…I keep getting lashes

I begin to blame her…

Ever lash, my rage grows more

An hour goes by….then two

I feel rage at this bitch!

WHY WOULD SHE DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS?!

I’m not sure how many hours it’s been…or is it days?

The whipping has stopped…

My blood is boiling!

I feel one purpose…

Sara must SUFFER!!!!!

Do you feel safe?

Yes…

Perfect!

The chains drop from my arms and I’m freed…

A door opens…

Then let’s make Sara suffer shall we?

-The Clocktower: Psychological Reconditioning-

 

 

 

 

 

Entry 136: The Clocktower: Voice Of Sins Past

I knew everything said could’ve been a trap

Still, I felt I had no choice…

I had to take a gamble on that

I walked to the door, it opened on its own

Like it was gleeful in its own right

Stepping inside, the door did not slam but, it did shut

I heard laughter, everything was dark

Then I heard it

Sara’s screams

It was all too real for me

Torches suddenly lit, a path was revealed

It led straight to a single room

I stepped in, seeing no other choice

As I did I heard a voice

It was one I hadn’t expected

The Kid?!

A Devil In Black

Cunning indeed

Led me to the place

That would become my suffering

Do you know, the pain I’ve felt?

Do you understand, my suffering?!

I’m just a kid, but do you think this place cares?

The things I’ve been subjected to, well…

There are no words for that

I suppose I’ll just have to show you 

A wave of emotion suddenly came over me

Memories flashed quite vividly

I saw this poor kid whipped

He’d been beaten

Other…very unsavory things

I was flooded with memories of what had happened to me

The things my uncle had done

This poor kid, compared to what he had been through

That was nothing

I’m sorry kid…

I wish we hadn’t wound up in this place

Still, what’s done is done

Can you help Sara and I escape?

You are a vile piece of shit!

You could care less what happened to me!

The only things you care about are Sara…and your freedom

THAT’S NOT TRUE! I want to help you out of here too!

Do you?

Too bad…it’s too late for that

I’m a part of this place

If you want to help, simply don’t resist

I couldn’t get my vengeance against the man who took my family

In fact, you prevented that personally

So…it is only fitting, I see you feel that vengeance!

They broke me, they raped me, they did other things to me

I was broken you know that?

The Clocktower helped piece me back together

I can tell you, Sara is going through much the same thing

She is being raped, she is being destroyed, she is being…

Psychologically SHATTERED!

They replay your happiest memories…sometimes making you watch them

While they do the most horrible things to you!

You could never understand…but you will soon

You will be sodomized!

You will be tortured!

Everything you’ve ever loved…it will be broken before you!

You will feel the sorrow of pain past and present!

I’m sure they’ll have you join in on Sara’s torture…

Once their done breaking you!

The Clocktower always wins…

It’s true…there is no escape…

The sooner you accept that…

The sooner you can get the torment over with…

YOU TRULY DON’T UNDERSTAND MY PAIN!

I was shown the worst of things

I was made to do terrible things

The best part…I hated it when they made me kill someone

The time they made me cut myself slowly…again and again…

Eventually though…I began to crave such things!

I enjoyed inflicting pain upon others…and myself

You’ll understand that soon enough though…

It’s all your fault Ren…

So let’s get on with things!

I can’t wait to assist in your suffering!

I heard a chainsaw rev up

Ah shit!

I began to run

Every hall, every door, it all seemed to open to another hallway

There was no way to tell if it was the same one or not

I could hear the chainsaws teeth grinding into a wall not far behind me

Reset

I was stricken with pain, dropped to my knees

I could hear Sara screaming so vividly!

I lost a memory, I could feel that much as well

There was no way for me to tell which one

Was it important? I couldn’t know

I had to keep moving

Oh Ren, run all you want

I’ll keep you going in circles if that is what it takes

You’ll never escape this place!

This place doesn’t change though right?!

No, however, I can make you think it does

That chainsaw sure got you running…

Even if there was never really anything there

It brought you to the room, you are now stepping into

I had stepped inside, it was too late

The door shut behind me and I suddenly felt…woozy

The room was completely pitch black

It was like someone had put gas in it or something

I passed out…

The last things I heard were a child’s laughter

Then these words…

No worries Ren, you’ll be awake in plenty of time for what happens next…

-The Clocktower: Voice Of Sins Past-

 

 

Entry 135: The Clocktower: The Memory Game

I tried to sleep…

I got no resty

When I awoke

She was staring at me

I dreamt a dream

A distant memory?

I’m not entirely sure what it means

There was Sara again

Speaking to me in secret

Telling me things in her life

Perhaps it was in death depending on your reasoning

She just wanted a friend to talk to

Someone who would listen

She needed a friend

That was that then

I listened…my unrequited thoughts

Dying inside, like my shattered heart

In that memory I was given the proverbial

Friend zoning

I had no real idea if that was actually the case

I didn’t know why I cared since we were Reapers

At least that seemed to be the case

We were based in a town known as Black Winter

These dreams…were they memories of my actual past?

I was starting to suspect so

Like leaves on the wind this scene faded

Soon forming another memory

We were talking though I could hear nothing said

Sara was crying

I gave her a hug

I was greatly conflicted

I’m not sure I should say what I thought

I couldn’t hear if I did but…

She looked up at me, tears in her eyes

It appeared she apologized

Then,

Wake up handsome

The facade…I was more than sure of it now

I didn’t know how…but, I knew this to be true

She smiled at me with that deviously perfect smile

Are you feeling okay?

You’ve been out for a while now

I wanted her warm embrace

I wanted to tell her I was okay

However…I knew, she was an illusion

She leaned in to kiss me, I dodged out of the way

That kiss…it always made me forget

I rushed outside only to find

The sky was black, lightning flashed

That beautiful field of sunflowers…

It had all wilted and the flowers were black

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I turned around and it began to rain

The most twisted smile had now formed

On what was once, a perfect face

You want me…don’t you Ren?

The truth was I did…at least…I wanted that perfect reality

I didn’t think this was that though

I’m sorry, your princess is in another castle!

*Wink*

WHERE’S SARA! I’M SICK OF YOUR FUCKING GAMES!

I’m sorry, Sara isn’t able to come to the phone right now…

Don’t bother leaving a message…we are breaking her as we speak!

BYE!

The field shook, and lightning began to violently strike

The figure before me smiled

Behind this wicked face a castle rose up

All black, made of skull and bones

A darkness resonated from it that I’ve never felt

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I guess we’re through trying to fool you

We couldn’t break you psychologically…

Rest assured though, that means we will try other methods!

You want Sara?

Good luck!

I’m betting you die trying!

Or…

Something to that effect

I think it’s time I give you some truly fun news

Remember that suicide Sara committed…

It was murder! 

Oh sure she was on the edge…

She kept holding on

We tired of this

Taking control of her…

We happily finished the bitch!

I felt a rage instantly take me over

I needed to control it but I was seeing red!

You are awfully quiet Ren

What, nothing to say?

Okay, well know

We have been having all kinds of fun with Sara

Sexually, psychologically, all kinds of things

Soon, she will be with us truly

I think then it will be fitting to have her suffer some more

Maybe we’ll even make you punish her?

Fun fact Ren…

This time you’ve spent in this place

Most notably this fantasy

It’s been slowing eating away at you

You may have noticed multiple memories, yes?

My scythe materialized and I came for this monster in Sara’s image!

She disappeared and reappeared closer to the doors of the castle

I don’t think so Ren…

You want revenge, you want the real Sara…

Then you’d better listen

Your having seen through our facade was unfortunate…

However this will be even more fun!

You have to go inside this castle to find Sara

She’s in the deepest depths of the nightmare before you

Here’s the fun part

Once you enter, and you will…

Every hour that goes by, you won’t get a reset

Nope, this room and place is safe from that…

Instead, you’ll lose a memory

That’s right,

Every hour, a memory gone

Eventually you’ll be a clean slate

We’ll make you whatever we want to!

It’s perfect really!

I’m betting I’ll reach Sara and escape this hell hole…

Long before I lose myself!

Oh yeah…about that…

Step foot through that door and you’ll find

A special rule applies as well

Every hour you don’t get to Sara and escape…

Well…I’ll let you discover that soon enough…

Just know Sara will pay as well…

So, soul, you up for it?

The moment you step through those doors…

THE MEMORY GAME BEGINS!

-The Clocktower: The Memory Game-

 

Entry 134: The Clocktower: The Perfect Reality?

I awoke to the most amazing smell

A home cooked meal from my beautiful wife

Her smile, so sweet

Wake up handsome

I’ve made us some food

You know, that thing your stomach always craves

She turned to put food on the plates

Sara is so gorgeous

I’ve got to be the lucki-

WAKE UP REN!

I am awake Sara!

Huh? I’m sorry love, did you say something?

That gorgeous smile…how did I ge-

THIS ISN’T REAL!

That’s Sara’s voice again…but…

Here you go!

She kisses me as she hands me the plate

I’m immediately taken to blissful memories

Was I thinking something?

Why the blank stare? Are you going to try what I prepared?

Of course! I was just lost in thought

She smiles at me, her smile is so perfect

TOO PERFECT!

Huh? There it was again.

It’s definitely Sara’s voice but…

I’m looking at her right now and she is just smiling.

Are you feeling okay? Were you not hungry? Did I do something wrong?

No, I wi-

DON’T EAT THAT!

The shock of her voice makes me drop my fork

I go to reach down but Sara is already there

She bends over to pick up the fork

Wow, she really is perfect!

Her body, every part of her…now that I think about it

Why haven’t I noticed this before?

I’ll go wash this, you sure you are feeling okay?

I think I just need to go for a walk and do some thinking…

Is that okay?

SURE!

She says this quite happily…I’m beginning to think something is off

I’m hit with a memory…or something

I’m with Sara, we are somehow meeting for the first time

This doesn’t seem right…why are we carrying scythes?

You know, it’s easier to eat if you don’t lose your food silly

I mean, if I was your wife I’d be pretty pissed if I made something for you

Then you just wasted it…I’m Sara by the way!

Huh?

I step out for a walk, I look around, everything seems fine

It all feels real

In a flash I see a place…a black Clocktower?

I’m chasing after Sara…I’m too late!

Just as quickly as the flash, I’m back again

Hello there handsome!

WHOA! You trying to give me a heart attack?!

She grabs my arm and smiles

It’s a perfect smile…but for some reason, I feel something off

Like it is a facade?

Now that I think about it…am I dreaming?

Think Ren…what was the last thing you remember before this?

Sara, you, the field of flowers…

No, it can’t be a dream

I remember proposing to Sara

I remember our wedding

I have so many memories!

THEY’RE NOT REAL!

That voice…it doesn’t seem like a lie…but how?

Hey, is it alright if I lay down for a bit…alone?

I might be coming down with something

I wouldn’t want you to get sick

She seemed to study me for a sec

Of course, that’s so sweet of you my love!

I knew I picked the right guy the day I met you!

*Smile*

Um, where did we first meet?

I suppose you wouldn’t remember

It was on a snowy day, at the park

Everything was perfect!

You asked me if I had met the guy of my dreams

It was a cheesy pickup line I’ll admit

It worked though

I went along with it and said

Must be the handsome guy in front of me

We introduced ourselves, it was beautiful

Love at first sight!

Sadly, the car wreck happened

It’s where you got those scars

We almost broke up

It took months before you accepted you knew me again

We rekindled things over the years

In some ways it was beautiful you know?

I had a 2nd chance to fall in love all over again!

I was lost in her words

It sounded beautiful, her words felt real

Maybe she was right…

Maybe I really just…wasn’t feeling well?

Sara kissed me spontaneously!

I felt my breath taken away

She was so perfect!

Am I forgetting something?

-The Clocktower: The Perfect Reality?-

Entry 133: The Clocktower: Pleasant Room

I climbed for what felt an eternity

Every hour that passed a shift happened

Which led to more stairs

More climbing

Just when I felt it was becoming mind numbing

I reached the top and as I went up into a room

I was blinded by sunshine

Lost in disbelief

I was in a field of daisies

Looking down there was only soil and more ground

There were no stairs

Was I in the Clocktower anymore?

Looking across the field I saw a tree

Standing under it was the most beautiful woman!

Turning around she smiled at me

All at once my heart skipped a beat!

SARA?!

Could it be true?

She had no scars

Where once there had been torment and pain

Their rested now…

Only happiness

I walked over to her, in shock

Had I escaped the Clocktower?

No, this must be a trick

Sara looked so beautiful in her white dress

I must admit, though I thought it a trick

I was at a loss for words…

I was smitten

All at once tears streamed from my eyes

Tears of happiness I hadn’t felt in a lifetime

She approached me, the most peaceful smile on her face

Sara hugged me, I was lost in her warmth and embrace

Hey there Ren…I missed you handsome

Come sit with me please

I walked with her, soon sitting under the tree

She leaned against me

This is peaceful, isn’t it Ren?

I’m always happiest, sitting here under this tree…

…With you…

You’ve always brought me peace

………..

Say something silly!

I was lost in the moment

I had no words

In her warm embrace…I knew peace

This was perfect

I felt like I was forgetting something

Everything felt right

I smiled, looked into those beautiful blue eyes

You are the world to me

She smiled, then we both leaned in

With one kiss passion flowed through my veins

As we locked lips, I tasted sweet eternity

Sara smiled, we kissed some more

I no longer felt I was forgetting anything

Passion flowed, souls intertwined

We made love, underneath that tree

Sara’s soft body was pure ecstasy

The way she embraced me

The taste on her lips

Sweet passion, I felt between those gorgeous legs

Yes, this was perfect, as is she

My love, my one and only

I gazed into her eyes

She stared into mine

Every beautiful thrust made us transcend life

Her warm touch, sweet release

In her eyes was my eternity of peace

We lay there, naked for a while

I took in the sight of that beautiful body

We kissed, we made love again

There are no words for this woman

So I suppose…love will have to suffice

As we finished again, laying in one another’s arms

We just enjoyed that moment for what seemed eternity

She smiled at me again and soon got dressed

A teasing wink, a mischievous grin she spoke to me

I love you Ren

I love you too Sara

Those 3 words…I love you…they meant the world to me

We soon sat there, finally fully clothed

Together we watched the sun set

Then she took me to our home

We made dinner and we laughed

Talking away about a life time of memories

The day we first met

My confession, that I liked her

Moments of happiness

The time we almost broke up

The happiness in our reunion

Our wedding and our marriage vows

She and I had a life time of memories

Though, we were still young

We spoke of the first time we made love

I knew we had a life time more

To create new memories

I loved this woman, down to my very soul

I was so lucky, to be with this sweet

Perfect angel…

She made me complete

The night was getting late

We eventually went to bed

I fell asleep quickly, holding Sara in my arms

This moment was perfect

There was no better way to spend the rest of the days of my life

As long as I had Sara

Nothing in the world could ever make me unhappy again…

-The Clocktower: Pleasant Room-

 

Entry 132: The Clocktower: Reflection

I wandered for hours

Having finally escaped

I pondered what might be next for me?

This place gave me scars of all kinds

I bore the obvious physical scars

Deeper though were the ones I bore in my mind

Deepest were the ones in my soul

I’d done some sick things to get out of that place

That woman reminding me of the worst of my memories

The Clocktower had reset every hour and things shifted

Still, everything was quiet…too quiet I thought to myself

There was no haunting voices

No psycho trying to murder me

It was just endless wandering

I had too much time to reflect

What had I become in this place?

Reset

The Clocktower shifted and this time

There was a bridge that led to a platform

So I continued along my path

The moment I crossed the bridge

Like glass, it shattered behind me

The platform was circular

Below me lit up white flames inside a case

It was a clock I stood on

All black

It read 12

Welcome Ren

It is time we learn your true motivations

The voice was dark but there was no one there

Perhaps it was The Clocktower itself

If so though…why was it not taunting me as before?

Are you proud of your actions thus far?

No, I said looking away

I did what I felt necessary…

The dial below my feet seemed to be keeping track of time

Perhaps until the next reset?

It read 12:05

The platform raised

Would you say you are a good soul?

I’m not sure I can judge such a thing

I’d like to think so…but then again

Do men of war see themselves as villains?

I believe they see themselves as hero’s

Even if they are evil at heart

The platform raised again before coming to a stop

The Kid you sent to eternal torment

Do you believe you did the right thing?

I’m not even sure how to answer that.

I obviously didn’t think it right

Then again, it was about survival right?

He seemed very eager to off me

Probably thinking about his own motivations

Not unlike myself…

I didn’t want it to end like that…

I meant well but you know how that goes…

The road to Hell is paved with good intentions…

I thought maybe there would be a way to move forward

Perhaps a way to release their souls in the end

I’d like to do so, should I survive this

Then again…I’m starting to think that won’t be something I can do…

The platform began its ascent again…this time it didn’t stop

If there was a way to escape…would you give up the other souls to do so?

I’d love to say I’d take their place…

But I’ve done some things as of late that make me question myself

Am I the soul I thought I was…or am I just another monster in this place?

There is definitely darkness inside of me

As with the Kid…it usually comes out when it becomes about survival

So, I have every intention of saying yes…I’d take there place

That is what I’d do

However, I won’t truly know unless I get to that point…

…I guess

Do you enjoy inflicting suffering on others?

Not really…but I’m aware some part of me likes it

Some part of me enjoys inflicting suffering upon

Those who do the same to others

Still that is enjoyment in another’s suffering so if we are going

Straight yes or no…then yes

That’s hard to say, but I’m learning not to lie to myself anymore

I would hope my motivations would be considered…

If you had a chance at true vengeance with your Uncle

or

Freedom from this place…could you forgive him in order to ensure

Your escape?

I felt a flood of memories…

My blood boiled at the thought

I grit my teeth without even realizing it

WHAT HE DID IS UNFORGIVABLE!

…

I’LL NEVER FORGIVE HIM!

What if another’s freedom were on the line instead…

Say Sara’s or The Kid’s?

I felt myself gasp in shock

The question threw me off…

I’d like to say I would…but…no promises

Very well…continue your ascent

The platform raised and the voice faded

I was left with only my thoughts as the platform stopped

What had I become?

Was I truly a monster?

I continued across another bridge

A huge door stood before me

It had screaming faces etched into it

Above it read:

Seek help from beyond

I wasn’t sure what that meant but seeing as there was no way in

I turned and went up a staircase to the right of it

-The Clocktower: Reflection-