Entry 203: Echo: My Eternal Song

Reality shifted around me again

I realize now, I can do nothing…

My memories are lost

I’m not even sure where I am

It’s become quite clear though…

This is my eternal end

I’m not sure what I did to deserve this

But, this place shifts at will

It’s quite apparent

This is now my reality…

I’ve recorded this

My final log

To let anyone who should turn up here know…

If you’re here

Abandon all hope…

I’ve begun to realize one thing for sure…

The other me’s that keep dying

They are pieces of my reality

I’ve died again and again

It’s this place

The Quiet has me

There is no escape…

My suffering eternal

I’ll never understand why

Always damned

To My Eternal Song…

…Suicide…

-Echo: My Eternal Song-

Entry 202: Echo: He Smiles At Me

I’ve awoken

I don’t remember much

Blood everywhere

My pain

Misery

Overtaking

What is the whispering?

I don’t understand

How am I…

Wherever I am?

The Quiet

A phrase rings through my mind

Suddenly I feel terrified

I remember nothing else

Except repeatedly cutting myself…

Is that how it went?

I’m not even sure I know anything

I sense The Quiet

It’s unsettling to say the least

Internally I can hear myself say

You are trapped here…

Eternally

Is this true?

Hearing a noise I walk out the room

SPLAT! SPLAT! SPLAT!

I turn to see myself being beaten

By a bat

Turning to look at me

It is myself again

A twisted version

Grinning with delight

Suddenly he sprints at me

Laughing maniacally!

I run but everywhere

I am there

Different me’s

All smiling at me

One stabs himself in the eye

With a pick

STAB! STAB! STAB!

Again and again…

Another shoots himself in the head

No matter how fast I run

He reappears

Doing it again…

I reach another room

Slamming the door shut

I can hear me with a bat

BANGING!

Turning around

In the dimly lit room

I see me smiling

Again

This smile has a madness

In it’s eyes

It steps off the chair

I hear the gurgles of death

Still, even upon eventual end…

He smiles at me

-Echo: He Smiles At Me-

Entry 201: Echo: The Quiet

Scratching and clawing

BLOOD! BLOOD! BLOOD!

The whispers gnawing at my mind

Many at a time!

One by one they’d grown silent

The Quiet silences all one whisper came

The Quiet tears apart your soul…

…Slowly…

The Quiet has a name

Though…

You’ll never learn it

Until it has overtaken you

Pray you never know the name

Though you will

Inevitably

The Quiet takes everyone…

I kept peeling at my flesh

I couldn’t stop

I was lost in twisted thoughts

Not sure what was real

Only that

Death would have me soon

Or perhaps it had

I don’t remember much

I’ve clearly gone

MAD!!!!!

Why can’t I stop?!

Why won’t it end?!

WHY AM I SCRATCHING?????!!!!!

AGAIN AND AGAIN?????!!!!!

I can see veins

My skin is clearly gone

I bleed…

HAHA!

YES!

I BLEED MORE AND MORE!

I see the dark blood

Falling to the floor!

I LIKE IT!

I LIKE RIPPING AT THE CORDS

BENEATH MY SKIN

I LOVE LOSING MY THOUGHTS

DO I EVEN HAVE A FAMILY?!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

The fleshy bits are gone

The red is all that is left

RED AND CORDS! RED AND CORDS!

KEEP RIPPING AND TEARING!

THE PAIN IS GOOD!

A piece of me screams inside

Telling me to stop

Yet I must continue

I am compelled to do so

I have to…

That’s what it wants…

The Quiet tells all

Arm is not enough

MUST RIP THE FLESH FROM MY FACE!!!!!

FIND A MIRROR TO THE SOUL

RIP THE SKIN OFF SLOWLY

NO ONE WANTS TO SEE THAT FACE

GO ON! GET GOING!!!!!!!

Finding a mirror I broke off a piece

I CARVED SLOWLY!

No more whispers

No more pain

The Quiet has overtaken my brain

The silence says many things

GO ON KEEP CUTTING!

MORE BLOOD IS A GOOD THING!

From the darkness and the silence I hear…

…My Name?…

-Echo: The Quiet-

Entry 200: Echo- Shadows & Insanity

Into the dark corridors of the ship

Deeper and deeper I went

My mind lost and scarred

I wasn’t sure who I was anymore

Oh the sadness and the pain

Was I the Devil or could I be a Saint?

On and on I ran

Probably towards my sanity’s end

The halls grew darker still

No doubt the ship had changed them again

I was wandering through a maze

For which there was no end

Groaning grew loud inside my mind

The whispers of the past dead echoing

If only I could find a way

To tell the truth from fiction this day

Sadly as the blood oozed from the walls

It became more and more apparent

This was not

A place where a happy end

Would be something I could attain

Their voices had grown

Tearing my soul in two

The whispers were driving me mad!

I knew nothing of the place I was in

Finally when I thought the hall would not end

The whispers continuing to tell my sins

It did…

I stood before a clock

The biggest I’d ever seen

It ticked persistently

Foretelling of the unknown

What was the purpose of this clock?

Every minute passed there would be a groan

Still the minutes passed like seconds

Hours like minutes

My reality distorted

Nothing made sense

I was barely conscious of anything anymore

Everything had felt a dream

Slowly driving me into insanity

It’d worked, I didn’t know who I was

Where I was

Anything…

The halls grew dim

The clock continued to tick

It now glowed a deathly black and white

The only light within the darkness at this point

Wake up! WAKE UP! WAKE UP!

The whispers began to chant

DO IT BEFORE HE COMES!

THE CLOCK TICKS CLOSER TO HIS TIME

RUN RUN RUN AND HIDE

IF YOU DON’T YOU’LL SURELY DIE!

There was a sudden fear that struck my soul

The likes of which I could never describe

I did not know who he was

I could however hear him coming

In the darkness of the halls

I heard their screams

Which soon were snuffed out

…slowly….

I turned and ran

I had no plan

I ran from something

For which Death was no escape

Running endlessly

I could not see its face

Still the screaming died out

The quieter it got

I knew the closer came my end

Such was the way of these things

The madness ever growing!

Yes…YES! I’M JUST A DEMENTED MAN!

LOST WITHIN HIS MIND!

THIS IS THE NIGHTMARE OF MY LIFE!

MADNESS I’VE BECOME!

I’M USELESS TO EVERYONE!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

MY THOUGHTS AREN’T MY OWN

HE ALWAYS KNOWS THEM

NONE CAN HIDE FROM HIS GAZE

HE KNOWS ALL THE WICKED’S WAYS!

I’ll…I’ll tear apart my flesh

PIECE BY PIECE!

Yes…yes that will fix my instability…

Surrounded in the darkness of the world I wait…

The shadows whisper many names

Here I sit peeling at my flesh

Watching the blood begin to drip

Scratching…

…SLOWLY…

-Echo: Shadows & Insanity-

Entry 199: Echo: Memories & Forgotten Sins?

I watched the memories play

It was as real as could be

I don’t believe this is true

Yet the evidence is there before me

The emotions…

They are so intense

Am I witnessing the truth before me?

Myra?

My wife?

It’s okay, I’m here for you

Listen to my voice, Eric

The thoughts echo inside my head

Does she speak truth?

She seems…

Lovely?

It makes sense

We’ve spent our lives together, you and I

It makes sense…but something inside

It warns me, but…WHY?!

It’s the lies, Eric.

The other one, has warped your mind

She tried to come between us once

You told me yourself…

She claimed you were hers

You told me she lied…

You’d never cheat on me, you said…

You loved our family.

Best not to dwell on such bad memories though

One step at a time and we’ll put an end

To her lies…

Right, Eric?

Right…yeah…I think it’s coming back to me

I can’t remember her name…

Her face though…

Quite familiar

Of course I’d never cheat!

DON’T LISTEN TO HER LIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHIT?!

The other voice…

Don’t listen to her/LIES!!!!!!!

The voices, my head…

Throbbing!

IT MAKES NO SENSE!

WHAT IS HAPPENING?!

The room went black and I awoke…

A hospital bed…

I believe I’m still on the ship

A voice appears over the loud speakers

Eric…

It’s not Myra, it’s the other one…

She laughs

Let me show you the truth Eric…

I think you’ll find it makes a lot more sense

Don’t you remember me, Eric?

Your actual wife…

The one you were pathetic and stupid enough

To treat like shit!

YOU FUCKING CHEATED ON ME WITH THAT SLUT!

I’M GOING TO SHOW YOU THE TRUTH AND YOU WILL RELIVE MY PAIN…

ETERNALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!

My head feels like it’s splitting as the place grows dark

I’m there, another memory?

I’m with Myra?

Someone is watching…

It’s a video?

Shhh…it’s okay Eric.

Forget your wife

If you don’t love her

What is the point?

Maybe you did once…but now we have each other…

The world comes back to and I hear the sound of metal grinding

People all at once scream

A man comes from the darkness

A sickening smiling

IT’S ME?!

He has a knife

STOP! NOT ANOTHER STEP!!!!

What is happening?

He vanishes into the shadows and I hear nothing

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Hello me, I’m the cold dark truth

The thing you hide deep within your psyche

Confess and be honest with yourself

This is who you are

In reality

You loved playing your wife

You got off on the thoughts

The ones in your head while you fucked her?

Yes, those thoughts!

Was it nice when you dumped her body in the trash?

Your daughter bore witness to this

Couldn’t have that so…

Off went her head!

It was fun for you!

All you wanted was an escape

Stupid bitch kept you on a leash

Men aren’t meant to be tied down, right?!

We do what we want!

FUCK WHO WE WANT!

That’s who you are…

A killer, a cheat

A proud one at that!

YOU ARE A FREE MAN IN A WORLD OF ENSLAVED!!!!

NO! STOP LYING!

It’s not true…

I’D NEVER MURDER MY FAMIY!

I’D NEVER CHEAT!!!!!!

I don’t believe any of the bullshit you spew!

QUIT LYING TO ME!!!!!!

Everything fell silent

A light appeared

There stood my daughter

Beheaded,

Her head in her hands

Blood all over she asked me

Why Daddy?

Why did you do this to me?

Her crying suddenly took over

Loudly she cried in my mind

I felt her sadness…her sorrow…

I felt I might’ve done the things said…

NO! I…

I DIDN’T…I COULDN’T!

I WOULDN’T!

She ran and I felt compelled to follow

Down the dark corridor I went

Drowning in sorrow

I didn’t know what to believe

Who spoke truth?

Who am I…really?

Echo: Memories & Forgotten Sins?

Entry 198: Echo- Myra

A dark rasping, echoes through

With it come a dreadful sense of impending doom

I walk into a room and am over come

By gloom

A despair that makes no sense

A longing without end

Kill yourself

The whispers say

Do it now

Or your family will do the same

I’m not sure what that meant

Nothing makes any sense

How am I to believe

Voices I’m unsure of

Inside a twisted reality?

Is any of this real?

It feels real enough

There she is again

Knife in hand

A wicked smile on her face

WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?!

I scream!

Laughter is all I’m met with

A dark, horrific laughter

Her mouth does not move

There is no sound from the lips

I feel her there

Inside of me

Echoing within my mind

Dreadful darkness creeping inside my soul

I’m tortured endlessly!

Why do you do this?

What is it you seek?

PLEASE STOP TORTURING ME?!

Eric

A voice says

This time I think it comes from everywhere?

It isn’t the woman before me

She stands there smiling

Frozen in place

It’s as though time itself

Had stopped

How chill the stillness of her smile is

The dread I feel overcoming me!

I hear the speakers bring forth

A symphony of laughter

Alongside the cries of the tortured and damned

What is this madness I am suffering?

This endless nightmare

Where is it coming from?

Who is the sound of that voice

I don’t quite remember it

Yet it is familiar all the same

Eric? 

Her voice resonates again…

Surely you remember your dear wife?

You remember me…right?!

You can’t be my wife?!

I remember her

A voice nothing like yours

If you speak truth

Show yourself!

A woman steps from the shadows

Blonde, ocean blue eyed beauty

The red dress is stellar

She is beautiful as can be

My wife however…

She couldn’t be?!

Nothing of it makes sense

I have no memory of the woman before me!

YOU SPREAD LIES, SPEAK TRUTH!

WHO ARE YOU REALLY?!

Your wife dear Eric…

You don’t remember me?

No…no…you can’t be!

I’ve never met you…

YOU’RE CRAZY!

Stop it, I don’t know what is happening?!

Is this some kind of test?!

Who are you?

You…aren’t…my…

WIFE!

Eric…

She says before disappearing into shadows again

I’m your wife Eric…it’s going to be alright

I know you’re facing memory issues

They said it’d happen after you hit your head…

After the accident…

We’re together now though…

Believe me honey!

No…

NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!!!!!!!!

QUIT LYING! WHAT IS THIS…REALLY?!

Shh…it’s okay honey

I assure you I play no games

Don’t you remember me?

My name?

I-

Myra, baby?

You remember me, right?

I..I…

I-NO!

I, I can’t remember my wife’s name?!

What did you do to me?!

I know Myra wasn’t my wife

I’m positive of this!

I…

I know I’m right!

It’s okay baby…

It’s me…

Your one and only…

I blink, the room has changed

We are no longer in a space ship

Perhaps…a memory?

It’s her birthday?

Happy Birthday Myra

I said, planting on her a kiss

She seems so happy…

There’s Isabella, my son too…

Wait…

What was his name again?

I-I can’t remember?

Is she my wife?

I flash back and I’m back here again

What is real?

What is reality?

There there baby…

Let me show you everything

I assure you

You’ll remember it all in time

That’s what Dr. Kensington said

Everything will be…

Just fine…

She smiled

I wasn’t sure who to trust

Part of me wanted to trust this reality

However,

I didn’t feel I could

Inside I screamed something wasn’t right

Then she appeared closer before me

I was transported to another time

THIS CAN’T BE…CAN IT?!

She is there

A Dr. Kensington as well…

Is this the Dr. of whom she spoke?

They are delivering Isabella?!

That can’t be…

Could it?

That’s right Eric

Sit down…

Watch the memories play

You’ll realize the truth

…Someday…

*Pleasant Smiling*

-Echo: Myra-

 

 

Entry 197: Echo: They Slowly Stalk Me

He…hehe…hehehe…HAHAHAHAHAHA!

The laughter sounds from the walls

All around the blood falls

I see my brother Jim

Constantly dying…

Over and over again

Suicidal suffering

Tormenting me with his emotional abuse

If what he speaks is truth

He is the one in the wrong

I the victim!

Yet here he appears on blood splattered walls

Stalking me up and down these halls

Showing me his death again and again

Cackling madly

No promise of tomorrow for him

Is there one for me?

What kind of hellish insanity

Have I found?

I’ve awoken to madness all around

He continues to stalk me

I continue to run

I feel my mind going insane

Slowly this place tears away at me

I can feel the breath of a living thing

Echoing within the these halls

Studying me

Picking me apart

Slowly, smiling, this place lives

I swear it!

Just as I feel the madness overtake

Jim vanishes

The ship falls silent

The silence becomes worse than anything from before

It is so quiet as I wander the halls

Has it been days, months even?

I’m no longer sure

Everything is blurring

It is all the same

The silence has lasted for an eternity!

Now I begin to question all

As I step through a door and all at once

I’m back within the same halls

Jim stalking me

Laughing

Committing suicide again

Still he haunts me

Unrelenting

Then I see her as well

My Isabella…

My baby girl

She bleeds from her head

I…I’m not sure if anything is real

For soon I sense her…

The woman who fills me with dread

The one I met at the beginning of all of this

She holds in her hands a fair sized knife

Licking it slowly

Her tongue splitting in two

Before she vanishes

Reappearing ahead…

SMILING!

That smile is the worst thing of all I think

The sinister thoughts no doubt

Housed within it

Red like the blood on my daughters head

An omen of death

For what lies ahead

The halls grow dark

The world black

I see nothing…but…

I hear her breathing…

The sound of the knife grating on the metal walls

It grinds and vanishes

Appearing ever closer than before

I run in the opposite direction

Though it is back the way I came

I find not surprisingly

I’m somewhere else…

ENTIRELY!

She’s here in the darkness

I hear her all around

The grinding of the knife

Echoing from the walls

Her smile is something I can sense

Much like her dark intent

I run and run some more

The place shifts and alters once again

Leading me deeper into the maze within

I’m terrified by all I see

For the lights come on suddenly

The woman no longer there

Instead

The walls fill with eyes

Staring at my soul

I see their pained expressions

Hear the screams

Then there is her laughter again

I can hear them slowly die

One by one she slaughters them

As they die the eyes that match the victims of each

Turn a horrific crimson

A shock on them

Just before they roll into the walls

Fading…

I press forwards

RUNNING FOR MY LIFE!

She slowly follows

Smiling…

I feel the stalking inside the walls

I feel her smile all around the halls

I know not how this will end

I suspect…

…In Death…

-Echo: They Slowly Stalk Me-