Entry 219: I’d Do Anything For My Love

*Gasping*

I feel her touch

It wreaks havoc upon my soul

I feel her gaze

I’m losing CONTROL!

For whatever she wants

She ALWAYS gets…

Such is the way of The Siren

It started so simply

She met me at school

I was quite the fool

You see, I fell in love

It only took a simple kiss

I was lost in her bliss!

It started quite easy

She said all the right things

Looking into my eyes

She knew she had me…

I saw what I wanted to see

Her beautiful blue eyes

Piercing through my soul

The scent of an angel

Ever alluring

So, the first night

She came to me

I did not protest

I felt my blood

My very being

Begging for her!

She never said a word

Though, I hear her song within my mind

I would do, whatever she asked of me

I knew it wasn’t right…

My girl friend wouldn’t approve

That wasn’t a problem for long though

As she asked me to end it

Split up I felt her beautiful voice say

I couldn’t stop any of it…

I was hypnotized to such a point

I split up alright…

Walking to my lady’s home…

Taking an axe to her face

That was the end…of my relationship…

The visions were intense!

I’d never felt more alive

As she painted my ex’s blood onto her lips

Giving me a kiss, I’d never forget…

I was taken to Heaven

That night…

It was a high like no other

Though in truth, I was no doubt, going to suffer

I couldn’t stop myself

As she made love to me…

There was a strange melodic noise

A choir of angels

She never spoke a word

However…

I was hers

So wholly consumed

For such an angel…

I’d do anything!

Next it was my parents

They had to go, she said…

A fitting sacrifice

A proof of my devotion…

Taking the chainsaw to my Mother & Father

It was all…

Hardly a bother…

I felt a smile grow

As the blood of my family

Splattered upon my face.

Such was how things would end…

The police called over due to the screaming.

Asking me what I’d done

Asking me why…

Their voices soon drown out

I heard her inside

She kissed me upon the cheek

Told me it was time

I’d join her, eternally…

So it was,

I revved the chainsaw up

Then laughing…

I SHOVED IT INTO MY GUT!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!

-I’d Do Anything For My Love-

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Entry 186: Such A Lovely Smile

I still see you

Falling from that window

Death occurs

You ARE…DEAD!

Then, I wake up and you are there…

It happens again and again

I don’t understand why?!

The people in white tell me that I need my meds

They say no one is smiling…

Then again I sometimes look and I see you in the corner

Staring back at me

Such a lovely smile

You were my best friend…

That is you, right?

I hear your voice

The world changes around me

It makes no sense…

No more people in white

Just her.

Hey Ashley…

She says gleefully

That is my name

Scarlet was yours

You seem you…

I’m confused

It still makes no sense

You are clearly here now

What am I supposed to think?

That smile is lovely…

It crosses my mind again

You give that smile always…

Just before you jump

There you go again,

Smiling, all the way down…

SPLAT!

I’m back in the room

The people in white…

They’re dead

There is blood everywhere!

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?!

It doesn’t make sen-

I’m back in that old attic

You are all in black

Such a lovely smile

NO…NOT AGAIN!

………

I hear the crunch

Grip my head

Screaming, but nothing comes out…

The room again…

They’re all dead

I’m covered in blood

Someone’s eye is in my hand…

I snap back too

The attic, but your smile is no longer lovely…

It doesn’t make any sense…

Your face, you are fearful…

As you fall…

Why?!

I just wanted to tell you I loved you!

I just wanted you to care…

You look scared…

It is all too late I realize

Memories are tricky

The smiling one…

That was you indeed…

Up until I shoved you out the window

For rejecting me…

I always thought you had such a lovely smile…

Which is why, I had to throw you out the window

Making sure you never smiled again

You rejected my love

So, no one will ever love you again…

I wake up…

They’re all dead…

SHE FUCKING SMILED!

Haha…

YOU DIDN’T BELIEVE ME!

SHE SMILED…

But,

Now I am smiling…

You’re all dead…

Couldn’t have you see what I saw

That lovely smile

It is all mine!

No one will ever see that lovely smile…

Not again…

-Such A Lovely Smile-

Entry 173: I Am The One For You

*Recording Begins*

Do you think of me James?

Do you ache for me James?

I think of you all the time

You are always on my mind

Everytime I cut myself

Every cut, a new victim

A release of the pain

OF MY HATE!!!!!!!!!!

For those who hurt you…

Again….AND…AGAIN!

Everytime I lose my mind

I think of you

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I’m looking into the mirror

Smile on my face…

It is for you, my love

It’s not for my husband

It’s for you

I was a better person before I met you

You are my drug

MY ADDICTION!

I gave up much…

That’s why last night

I sent you that e-mail

That’s why last night…

I KILLED HIM FOR YOU HAHA!

I tied him up, like we do for sex

Made out with him…slowly…

The entire time he was inside me

I pretended he was you

Eventually though, I came down from that high

Seeing my husbands face, asking myself why?

I gagged him, took a saw to his dick

LAUGHED AS THE BLOOD SPRAY HIT MY FACE!

I LAUGHED AT HIS AGONY!

I cut out his heart….

I have it in a jar

A reminder of how far I’d go

To prove my love for you!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Maybe just maybe, I’ll be worth your time now…

Always there for you…

Till some abusive ass comes along

Spreads her legs and you forget me again

Too busy to talk

I’m just someone you come to in order to avoid being lonely

When no one else cares about you

That’s okay though, it’s their fault not yours!

That last slut is dead already!

I played with her slowly!

Taking a toy, giving it a razor finish…

I slowly…OOOOOOooh so slowly…

*Whispers*

Covered her mouth…

Shoved it between those legs you love so much

Her muffled screams were beautiful

I tore her internally to pieces

The same way you tear me apart every day!

I couldn’t help myself!

Her pain was my own

WE WERE ONE THAT DAY!

Quite the submissive bitch she was!

It’s part of why you find her so fun right?

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

I KNOW I DID!

I went through the list…I’ve been watching you for a while

I finished them….SLOWLY!

One of your “girlfriends” I took out of the way

Gagged her, tied her down…slathered her in honey…

Let the ants do the rest…

I WATCHED HER DIE SLOWLY AND IT WAS FUN!!!!!!!!!

THE WHORE SHOULDN’T HAVE YOUR ATTENTION!

I do you favors…killing them slowly

They all broke your heart James

I hate seeing you in pain when you go back to them

They do it all again…

All I want for you…

True love and HAPPINESS!

Is that too much to ask?!

I don’t want you to be sad

You need the perfect one

The soul just right for you…

I COULD BE THAT ONE!!!!

Clearly I’m not that one, according to you…

You’ve made that obvious

However, I will be there, until you realize I am

THE ONLY ONE FOR YOU JAMES!

Always killing the ones who hurt you

Making them know OUR PAIN!

I will be there for you when you need me

I will cry myself to sleep

When you inevitably ignore me again

The same way I will simultaneously love

THE HEARTACHE!

I will relish that sweet, slow pain

GET HIGH OFF THE HURT!

Then, we can do it all over again…

Eventually you’ll…

Let the next whore hurt you…

THEN I WILL KILL HER AS WELL!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

I promise you this…

You will smile in the end…

You will find…

I AM THE ONE FOR YOU!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

SAY HELLO TO HAYLEY’S HEAD!

STUPID BITCH WON’T HURT YOU AGAIN!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

*Recording Ends*

-I Am The One For You-