They don’t understand me
They don’t know true pain
They’ve never truly had to suffer
At least not in this way
Night after night…
…The NEED increasing…
The ABSOLUTE OBSESSION that comes from my condition
Yes
I know true pain
In trade however
When I give into my LUST
MY ABSOLUTE DARKEST DESIRE
I feel a bliss no soul can come close to experiencing
I taste it simply speaking of it
I am sent back to every victim
Every soul I tasted of
My lips tremble at the thought
It was hard in the beginning
I refused my bliss
I refused my DEEPEST…DARKEST…DESIRE
I fought against my very existence
Why?
Because I didn’t know true happiness
I’d never given into it
I’d been afraid when I realized what I’d become
I’d been left with nothing
Left to my own way
I always felt eyes upon me
I felt her watching
Still, I was never greeted…initially…
No, I was watched from shadow
I fought the cravings at first
I HUNGERED & yet…I tried to resist…
That’s the thing though…
…Walking the streets of Black Winter…
…I felt them call to me…
…All…of…them.
Their very bodies begged for me
So it was
Late one night
I wandered the street
I wasn’t truly sure where it’d end
Deep down though, I knew I was about to commit a DARK SIN
I was a pastor once
A trusted member in another time
The woman changed that
I never saw her
She took me in the night though
When I awoke I found myself alone in this town
Welcome to Black Winter the sign said & yet there was no direction
No way out
I’ve tried
That’s not what’s important though
What’s important is the night I wandered
The night I first gave in
That night
After many nights of suffering
I wandered
Then I saw him
A boy probably no older than 10
He was covered in dirt
He asked me if I could help him find home
I told him I knew not where his home was
I asked if he knew
“Yes but, I’m scared to go alone” he said to me
Okay I told him
I would escort him home
I walked with the boy in those cold dark streets
Every step I felt myself growing hungrier
Every step I felt my CRAVING grow stronger
Every step the already AGONIZING SUFFERING…well…it grew
I turned toward the boy, watching as although scared he looked at me
A slight smile showing hesitant peace
I smiled back & we continued walking
I dropped pace ever so slightly & I heard her voice
“Give in…in the home…”
Her voice terrifed & also commanded me in a way
I yearned to do as she asked to an obsessive level
So it was I was led home
The childs home
A knock upon the door later and a woman appeared
The concern on her face showed she was his Mother
The robe she wore was
Well
It was revealing
She welcomed her boy in but, she became transfixed upon my gaze
And I
I became transfixed upon her flesh
She told me to come in & I obliged
The door shut
The boy was sent upstairs
I could hear her heart, I could sense the blood becoming warmer under her flesh
Then everything went black
I came to in bed
Her bed
She begged for more of me
I realized we were naked
She & I had become one
I felt myself slipping
Then, in the corner I saw her
The most beautiful woman I’ve ever gazed upon in my life
It was her
I could sense it
She smiled
Evil permeating from her gorgeous body
“Give in”
Two words were all it took
The moment went form a beautifully romantic scene
To a bloodbath
In a flash my teeth sank into my victims throat
I ripped her jugular out & bathed in the beautiful spray of her blood
She didn’t even have the time to scream
I drank so much from her & I felt ALIVE!
I felt PLEASURE BEYOND IMAGINATION!
A type you could not understand
I danced with her dead body
I drank some more
I covered myself in her blood
Then…
…In the doorway…
I…saw…him…
A terrified child!
He had every reason to be scarred for eternity
However,
I heard her voice right outside of my right ear
*Lick*
“Mmm…finish this…”
I remember the boys eyes wide & petrified
A lamb that knew its slaughter was NIGH!!!!!!
I dropped the mothers body to the floor with a thud
My smile grew now as the boys eyes began to shed tears of horror
Still my smiled grew as I put a finger to my lips to quiet him
“Do not be fearful young one…you’ll be see your mother again soon”.
I grabbed the child
I was ready to rip his heart from his chest but she told me to make it slower
A part of me hesitated but, then that part died in the blissful memories of the mothers blood.
I therw the boy into a chair & I slowly sliced him
I did so with my finger nails
I heard her laugh
She was pleased at what I was doing & I wanted only to please her more
So…
…I slowly ripped out his tongue and threw threw it on the floor
A gurgled noise the kind I’ve never heard rang out
I imagine he was trying to scream but it was hard to for him
I tasted his tears
Then I watched as she cut open his throat
She wasn’t in my head
I was sure of this now
She put a glass to his open wound and offered me the first sip
I’ve never looked back since
-My Darkest Sin-
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