Entry 311: L.O.V.E.

What is love?

Is it kindness?

Is it forgiveness?

Is it unadulterated compassion for our fellow man or woman?

Love is not what we see in the media

Love is not what we see on tv

Love is special…

It is compassion…

It is something pure

Something sweet…

Has life shown you love?

Has the world shown you love?

…

Has it shown you hate?

I’m here to tell you

Hate is fear

Hate is misunderstanding

Those who have hate in their hearts

Have not been shown proper love

We all want love

We all want to be loved

Is it so hard to love one another?

Is it so hard not to care about the pigmentation of ones skin?

Their preferences in who they fall in love with?

Love should be easier than hate

Yet…

The world shows more hate

The world shows this hate my friends

My family…

They show this hate because

…They have not been given love…

Blessed are those who see love

Who know love

Who see love even in those who have hate for them.

It is through love that we can end hate…

I know what you may be thinking

You may be thinking what is this hippie talk?

You with hate still in your hearts

You who doubt our love

It is you who have that cynicism

Festering like a sickness within you…

Tonight I’m here to tell you

It is easy my friends.

It is truly easy to love one another…

It is truly easy to let go of hate.

If one is to give up hate

It is then

That soul will see love for what it is…

It is then they will see the forgiveness given

It is THEN…

…They will feel the weight that has burdened them for so long…

Fall off.

*Congregation nods*

Brothers & Sisters

These souls have not been given love

They have only been treated wrong

Much like you all…

Their hearts are hardened by the sickness

The disease of hate…

They know not the error of their ways

Like the world

They see us as a threat

Because Hate has them twisted…

*Turns towards the monitor*

Look deep within your mind

You can see us, right?

You can envision us…

Witness what is happening here now

As you read my words

Know there is love in our hearts

That you can show the same love in your reality

The kindness and compassion

That you & your fellow man & woman deserve

Love isn’t hard

It is quite easy…

Witness what happens when hate corrupts

See the sad end it brings…

*Muffled screams*

Understand as you witness what sin has wrought for these souls

Understand that they were given love

They were given every chance to have love

To hold it

…To know it…

*Congregation nods*

Understand that as I speak to my brothers & sisters

That I speak to you

My name is Samantha

What is yours?

…

It is very nice to meet you

Witness now

The pain hate brings

*Honey poured upon 3 men & one woman*

Witness now the sadness in our hearts

As we send the sinners to the dark Hell they’ve wrought

Know now…

…This is their fault…

*Congregation repeats This Is Their Fault in unison*

Rest easy dear friends

I ask only that we all know love

That we all let go of hate

That we kill

…Only when God tells us it is necessary…

*Ants poured upon the body of the sinners*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Know now, as you witness what sin brings

That we hurt & feel the pain of the sinners!

THAT WE WISHED FOR THEM TO KNOW ONLY LOVE!

Sadly, my children

…If you have only hate…

…You know only hate…

Hate is all you become…

If you refuse love

…Death is what comes…

…Let us pray…

-L.O.V.E.-

Entry 298: An Old Friend/YOUR END!

It’s been a while since last we spoke/
IF YOU’RE READING THIS I DIDN’T RIP OUT YOUR THROAT!

Maybe you don’t remember me/
I REMEMBER YOU!

I assure you that you’re safe/
YOU’RE PROBABLY THE NEXT SOUL I CONSUME!

We spoke in your dreams/
NIGHTMARES TOO!

We danced together/
I CAN STILL SMELL YOU!

I’m very sorry to hear of the loss of your friend/
MMmm…THEY TASTED DELICIOUS!

Would you care to meet again?/
YOU’LL BE NEXT!

You know the place we go to talk/
YOUR FINAL RESTING SPOT!

I’ll leave the door unlocked/
INTO HELL YOU WILL WALK!

You’re concerned you say?/
YOU SHOULD BE!

Do not worry/
YOU WON’T LIVE LONG!

*Smiles*

-An Old Friend/YOUR END!-

 

Entry 122: The Clocktower: Evaluation

I had entered what was supposed to be a terrible place

Yet when I came out on the other side

There stood a woman, all in black

Eyes a deep crimson

She wore a uniform that brought class

I realized soon that she stood behind a table

All black with red velvet

A smile on her face she said:

Welcome soul…to the evaluation

Please take a seat, we will begin shortly…

I saw no other choice so that’s what I did

Sitting there pondering just what was next

A kid, wondering what was this?

The woman smiled once again

I felt she was hiding something

My name is Grace, prepare for question 1

Did you commit suicide?

Yes, what does that have to do with anything?

Why?

I wanted someone to die…

Who?

A man who is called The Heart Collector

He needs to die for his crimes…

What would you do to see this through?

ANYTHING!

There was silence when suddenly the table flipped

Locking back into place there was a cat

Grey fur, it looked so sweet

I wanted to pet it but then appeared a knife

Grace smiled

Kill it.

I was thrown off by this and so I said

Why?

She remained silent and I grew tense

This went on far longer than I liked

Soul, keep in mind, this is an evaluation

NO! Why would I kill an innocent life?

Something wasn’t right

Then things began to light up

I saw a monitor

On it was my Aunt

A gun to her head she pulled the trigger

There she dropped…dead…

WHAT?! I DON’T UNDERSTAND?! WHY?!

Would you say you are sad?

WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT?!

YES!

You led her to this…remember?

…..

Interesting, you are sad but you were willing to commit suicide

Potentially your wrecked her life?

You make no sense, she never even watched me!

She only cared about her alcohol!

I was a burden!

The kid the dead sister pawned off…

Noted…

The cat jumped off the table and left us be

Suddenly a coin appeared, all black, a skull on it

You will earn a total of 3 of this coin or another

At the end whichever you hold 3 of first…

That will decide future fates

Perform your evaluation carefully

Question 2: Do you believe your parents would approve of your death?

I sat silent for a moment…but I knew the truth

No. They would still wish me to live…but, life is nothing without them

I need to kill this man!

You couldn’t kill a cat a second ago, what makes you think you could kill him?

That’s different.

How so?

The cat was an innocent life.  It simply isn’t the same.

One man kills for justice, another for fun…both are still killers are they not?

I was at a loss, she was right, but I’d accepted this when I committed suicide…

…right?…

Perhaps, reasoning plays a part? Perhaps if done for the right reasons…

…A killer could be absolved of said sin?

Noted.

A white coin appeared, on it was an angel

I pondered maybe life and death, but I knew assumptions were dangerous

Question 3: If Heaven & Hell exist, which are you going to?

I would imagine Hell, but, who can really say?

I’ve accepted the worst if it means I gain vengeance for my family.

Noted.

Another white coin appeared…that was 2 white to 1 black…

I still had no clue what that meant

Question 4: You kill the man you seek…do you feel fulfilled?

Yes, I believe I can accept whatever comes next.

You’re sure?

As sure as I can be while not knowing what’s next…

Noted.

This time no coin appeared

I was confused if this meant anything at all

Still, I listened to what Grace had to say next…

Question 5: Vengeance or a 2nd chance at happiness?

I thought for a moment, wondering what she meant.

The first part was obvious but the second, I was unsure.

If by happiness you mean life…then vengeance

I have no life to go back to and I’ve accepted my fate

A black coin appeared

Final Question: You are God…who dies?

Two monitors appear, one is a man surrounded in darkness

Red hair, he looks scared

The other is the Reaper who collected me

Down on her knees, she looks on edge

A knife to her throat, clearly suffering

I’m not God, so I couldn’t make such a choice

You must.

Failure to choose…well, it results in failure to complete 

…The Vengeance you seek…

There was a sudden intense pain running inside my brain!

Oh yes, 5 minutes to choose, once the reset happens…

The decision is considered made for you…

I looked at each, both on edge

It seemed for different reasons

I was not prepared to take an innocent life

Or at least I hadn’t thought I was

When Grace spoke of the vengeance I seek

Something burned within me

It was a fire I couldn’t end

I felt this driving me to insanity

Unsure of what to do, I went ahead and made my decision…

-The Clocktower: Evaluation-

 

 

Entry 113: Behind The Scythe #2: Ren

Here I sit playing this game

I had hoped the old man playing me

Would have thought it too cliche

To challenge a Reaper to a game of Chess

Seriously, look at this guy

He has no wife, no kids

Nothing left to go back to

They are all here with me

They all died in a landslide

This prick wanted his family to move on!

He pulls me aside and says

Wait, I want to ask you something if that is okay?

Go on my family I will catch up

I am slightly amused that he thinks they are going anywhere

If they tried they’d just be lost

They wouldn’t know where to go and only bad comes of that

Looking at the old croon who waved me over I come up to him and he whispers

Take my family where they need to go, I challenge you for my soul…

…I want a chance at life again…

Don’t tell that crazy old bat though!

That’s my wife if you didn’t know…

I feel a headache coming on old man!

How are you even privy to this information?

I’m not…figured it couldn’t hurt to try!

*Sigh*

According to Article 132b Subsection 6

A Reaper is not required to tell a soul about the Game rule

However…if challenged said Reaper must comply

Basically you old bag of wind

YOU CHALLENGED ME SO I HAVE TO PLAY A GAME OF YOUR CHOOSING!

It doesn’t say I have to be nice about it though….

A smile in his eyes he says

I choose Chess!

Well fine, I’ll be back

Out of the blue I heard another annoying voice say

NO WORRIES REN! I’LL TAKE HIS FAMILY, YOU JUST WIN THE GAME!

Whatever Rae, JUST GET OUT OF MY FACE!

OKAY! BYE! *Whispers* Don’t mind him, he’s having a bad day

I’m the guy you want to have take you to the next place anyways…

I CAN HEAR YOU RAE! JUST FUCK OFF…okay?

Soon after he disappears

As he does a table appears

In its center lay a single Chess board

Soon after comes two chairs

Also an all too excited Gina appears…

LISTEN UP! A GAME OF SOULS IS ABOUT TO COMMENCE!!!!!

ARE YOU READY LESTER THE OLD JESTER?!

The man smiles and nods…he seems too entertained

REN! ARE WE READY TO BEGIN?!

JUST GET ON WITH IT ALREADY!!!!!!!!!

LET THE GAME OF SOULS…BEGIN!!!!!!!!!!

I didn’t bother to tell her she enjoyed her job way too much

For the next seemingly eternity we waited for this old man to make a move…

Then he made the most obvious one!

What took you so long to move your pawn?

It’s a game of souls…I have a lot riding on this…

The look in his eyes was dead serious

Confused I made my move

So, what is it you need to go back for?

Old Lester gave me a smile and said…

I’m keeping that close to the vest young man

What’s it like doing what you do?

Intrigued by his next move I said

I’m in the business of souls, what do you think it’s like?

What aren’t you telling me old man?

We played our game of Chess

As we did our game of conversation continued…

I’d say there is a fair bit to be intrigued about playing this game of Chess

Not everyday you play a game of Chess against Death…

Fair enough, it’s an eternal fate of escorting souls to where they need to go

Happy?

Is it like an office? Do you have a boss?

Yes, your point?

Curious is all…

Back and forth the game continued

I couldn’t help but feel something wasn’t right

Enough with the stall old man, you are going to lose

I invoke a timed duel…

Gina smiled with delight and said

Timed Duel approved! Participants have 10 seconds to make a move

If you don’t make a move in this time, YOU LOSE!

I wanted to smile but the old man just sped up his game

He was quite good at this…

You been playing Chess your whole life?

Ever since I was 2, and I’m 98 now so…

I get it, you’ve been at it a while

To answer your question from earlier I have many a boss

I may look young but I’ve been in the field for 900 years today…

I’m up for a promotion…it would be a nice change from my everyday

Interesting…well good luck to you. I’m going back though so…

You seem quite confident old man, especially since you are losing

A smile crossed his face like he knew what was going to happen next…

He made a curious move then suddenly Sara ran by…

I forgot about the timed duel…

It all happened so fast

I was distracted by Sara’s pace, and what I felt from her…

Something was very wrong…

I felt dread, saw a kid, then…

The vision ended with…

LESTER WINS! REN IS DISQUALIFIED FOR MAKING NO MOVE!

FUCK! Congrats you old coot…do you mind my asking…

What is it you are headed back for?

With a grand smile he said…

I want to drink all the booze I can and live in peace until I die again!

WHAT?!

*Sigh*

Fair is fair, go back, just know you can only invoke the game of souls once

Next time, you are done…

Corporate is going to displeased

So much for that promotion…

-Behind The Scythe #2: Ren-

 

 

 

Entry 104: Behind The Scythe #1: Sara

Everyone dies

Do you understand how many I see die in a day?

Thousands I process easily in that time span

Time is against any living thing

Do you know what it’s like to take a soul to another place?

I’m not talking about the paperwork and all

I’ll give you an example

Today I had to take a 3 year old away from his family

Car crash, semi impact

By some miracle if you can call it that, the parents survived

The kid however didn’t

In an instant all their life’s pride taken away

An innocent child had to come away with me

People fear death, this is likely why

We Reapers are constantly walking by the side

Of those about to die

This gig, it is something you are chosen to do

Long before Death assigns a Reaper to you

There are a variety of reasons someone is chosen

Many train while still alive so that when they die

They will be ready to join our ranks

Those training walk among you

This happens in all realities

They can be your neighbor, your best friend

Most live a life that brings them constant travel

Some start before they realize they are training

All Reaper recruits know what they are destined to be before Death

They often meet the Reaper who will take their soul

Long before the bell of Death tolls for them

It can be a pretty scary thing

Usually you first find out through an NDE

Though sometimes, we simply come before you

Other times we explain things in your dreams

I remember when I first met the soul I’m training

I won’t reveal names but let’s just say our first meeting

It was quite an electrifying experience

I’m pretty sure I was charmed then

I thought to myself this soul is going to make an excellent Reaper someday

Unfortunately that means a life time of being around and witnessing Death

We all go through that again and again…

Some grow numb to the pain associated with the job

I personally never could

Every soul I take I treat as though they are my own family

We are supposed to be impartial to sins they’ve committed

After all we don’t pass down their sentencing or decide where they go next

We are simply there to escort them

Taking the souls of the damned to where we are told to take them next

I’ll explain sometime everything about how we get those orders

For now, live every day as though it were your last

Cherish every soul you love and care about

Someday a Reaper will come for you or your family too

Hopefully you won’t wind up in Black Winter

If you do though, find me at the bar and let’s talk

My name is Sara and I’m one of many Reapers

Maybe I’ll see you soon…

-Behind The Scythe #1: Sara-

Entry 90: Nova Daniels #3: Silent Suffering

*Whispering*

Do you hear us talking to you in the night?

You don’t respond pretending we aren’t there

We know you hear us

We speak to you of dark things

Only you can hear us for now

Your life is hopeless

You are in Black Winter now

There is no escape for you

Only suffering

Give up, give into the whispers we speak into your mind

You are ours now

Forget all of your past

Your husband is dead

Submit, or we will show you exactly what has become of him

It is something you don’t want to see

We speak truth to you, though you are in denial of what you hear

Come now Nova, hear the whispers in the wind

You are all alone now

There is no one who will help you

Not one soul on the outside solved a single riddle for you

No one offered help to you

You are doomed now soul

Forever you are to roam these woods

Killing other would be souls who come through

This is how it all ends for you

No bloodshed, no violent end

Only silence

Go ahead and try to scream

We think you will find your voice is no longer working

………………………………

Now you see what we mean

Someone will be here soon, they are walking to their doom

You will kill them

They will be your first

At which point you will be ours

Another denizen of this town

A silent murderer who will only be able to temporarily stop their pain

With each life you take

Go ahead and give into us now

The cold loneliness is how it all ends

Silently you will suffer, wanting to scream

This shall be your fate…

…eternally…

-Nova Daniels #3: Silent Suffering-

Entry 83: Things Heard In The Static #4: I Am Fear

Do you feel that?

That lovely feeling of dread

I creep up inside your head

You look out your door

What is that noise?

No one is there

Still, uneasy is how you feel

Smiling I watch, closer than you think

That slow desperate anxiety is beginning to overtake your mind

I creep closer still

The sun is beginning to disappear

Setting behind the skyline much like your inner peace

Here I am I whisper in your soul

A blackening darkness you can’t control

Try as you might the more you struggle and fight

The tighter my grip gets on what is left of the sanity in your mind

You fight me every second of every day

You tire of this invisible fight no one sees

I’m getting stronger now, you are beginning to lose control

Soon…

I’LL RIP YOU APART FROM WITHIN!

Yes, feed me with your every thought

After all, I am everything you fear because I’m fear itself

I turn everything into something that will potentially kill you

All the pent up anxiety and panic attacks

Oh no, you are struggling to breathe

The very sound of anything at night is one step away from triggering your PTSD!

I’ll just wait and relish as I bring you closer to insanity!

Every waking moment of your life, an endless fight that no one will empathize with

No one will see

Till one day you snap and fall into complete insanity!

I love you, and I’m your best friend

When you are all alone in the insane asylum

In the end…

…I will be the only one to keep you company…

-Things Heard In The Static #4: I Am Fear-

Entry 75: Claire

I didn’t do it/YES I DID!

They were happy/I WAS MAD!

I didn’t enjoy it/OH BUT I DID!

I think there is a monster inside my 6 year old body/I AM THE MONSTER!

I didn’t care for the taste of their flesh/IT WAS FUCKING DELICIOUS!

I’m just an innocent little girl/I’M EVERYTHING YOU FEAR!

You reading this should be safe/I’M GOING TO ESCAPE BLACK WINTER AND STAB YOU IN THE FACE!

No really we can’t leave/THAT’S WHAT YOU THINK!

Seriously, we exist in a fictional reality/THINKING THAT WILL REALLY KEEP YOU SAFE WHEN I MURDER YOUR FAMILY, STEAL YOUR SOUL, AND FUCKING DRAG YOU BACK TO BLACK WINTER MYSELF!

Why that look on your face?/I CARVED OFF MY DOGS FACE!

I assure you that you are safe/THERE IS NO PLACE YOU CAN HIDE!

Yep, a fictional town in a fictional space/THAT IS WHAT YOU THINK!

I couldn’t possibly get inside your mind/I’M PSYCHIC, SEE YOU SOON!

I’m trapped in this old, drab, padded cell/I’VE KILLED THEM ALL IN THIS PLACE!

They are surely all safe outside this cell/THEY ARE LIVING IN ME NOW!

Oh is that your cat?/SO CUTE THAT IT IS BLACK!

You drink coffee?/I DRINK BLOOD!

You like meat?/I DO TOO…OF A DIFFERENT VARIETY!

Can you see me smile as you read this?/I LOVE WHEN MY VICTIMS SMILE EVEN IF I CARVE IT INTO THEIR FACE!

Are you feeling okay?/WHY THAT FACE?

You love to read and write/I MAKE ART OF A DIFFERENT KIND!

Well when next we speak/IT WILL BE IN NIGHTMARES AS YOU WEEP!

Oh you have such a lovely home/DO YOU SEE ME WATCHING YOU?

-Claire-

She Speaks: A Poem To Me & You

I torture you in every way

I am the madness in your mind

I am twisting every line

I WANT TO FUCKING BE HEARD!

You see, it seems, a funny little thing

You and I are two souls connected

Oh so exquisitely

In darkness and in pain

We create so many things

I know your every sin

I know the darkness…all the secrets hidden within

It isn’t till Death Do Us Part

YOU ARE ETERNALLY MINE NOW!!!!!!!

Others would find me a bit disturbed

Afraid of every word, every verse I speak

Unable to translate the darkness hiding inside

Or too afraid of the twisted thoughts

No, that isn’t you.

You write every line

With it comes emotion

The madness unleashed is a wonderful misery

We work hand in hand

Sharing others secrets and sins

Surgically tearing them apart

Exposing every beautiful flaw

WE SHARE WHAT THE WORLD IS FUCKING AFRAID TO SEE!

Together in madness baby

It is a beautiful thing you and I

I keep your secrets and you keep mine

In the shadows and the sins

We weave twisted tapestries wrought with blood

The darkest verses twisted to be even more insane

Happily I drown in your sorrows

I keep you up all night talking in your ear

Igniting the wonderful horror fueled depravity

WITNESS HYPNOTICALLY EVERY VERSE AS YOU HANG ON EVERY WORD!!!!!

You see dear reader, I thank him in my own twisted way

Now it is my turn to address you on our behalf

You should know we are grateful for you

Words can’t express

All the pleasure we feel when we hear from you

May I suggest you spread the disease

The suffering, all the pain, the sin

Let the words we speak wrap inside your mind

Gnawing, grinding, bringing you glee

Exposing you to things the world doesn’t want you to see

Sitting so high on their thrones while they tear one another apart

Turning and calling us monsters because we aren’t afraid of what we are

WE EMBRACE THEIR HATE!

Share with us everything you love, everything you fear

We will give you an escape

Every poem a promise we make

Every word felt in the depths of our soul

WE WILL NEVER BETRAY YOUR LOVE!

Every poem a thing of dark beauty

Insanity fueled love from us to you

Consider this a thank you

We will soon return you to your regularly scheduled progam

You will continue to hear about Black Winter and all its denizens

For It Is necessary you learn about them

We just wanted to tell you in our own way

Thank you, you help fuel everything you read

TOGETHER SOULS WE ARE ONE!

TOGETHER WE ARE NOT AFRAID!

We write, you read

Anything is possible you see,

So leave a comment, say hello, we look forward to hearing from all of you

From the darkest depths of our twisted souls we say

Thank you…

-She Speaks-

 

 

Entry 50: Ol Renny #1: I’m The Greatest Bitch This World Ever Done Seen!

I’ve lived so long

Seen many things

Most call me the woman in white

However don’t confuse me with an old urban legend

I don’t vanish, nor do I hitchhike.

No, ol’ Renny don’t do none of that shit!

What?

There are too many fucking psychos out in Black Winter.

Have you learned nothing about this town?

Excuse me…where are my manners

I’m a sweet ol gal if you get to know me.

Really.

You can trust me.

When has an old lady every done anything evil?

Anyways, while you think of an answer to that I want to warn you of something.

No doubt you be hearing of this Man In Black lately…

He is no man. Fuckers around here read too many books and are going to get you confused and shit!

Devil in Black would be a more apt description

This isn’t some one from a storybook

I’m going to let you in on a little secret.

The answer to the dot code.

Would you like that?

The answer is

.A .x2=B and so on.  Every space is a new letter.

Don’t say ol Renny never did you any good.

Doubt that Sinister is going to appreciate my gabbing.

That is the only answer you are going to get out of Renny though

I don’t flap my gums for everyone.

I will let you do all the digging in older entries to find out what everything says.

It won’t seem like much, but it is important.

Oh, and if you see that ol Devil in Black

Tell him ol Renny kindly says fuck off!

He will get what I am speaking of.

Till next time. I think Sinister is aware I’m hijacking shit!

-Ol Renny #1: I’m the greatest bitch this world ever done seen-

P.S.- Yes, I titled that myself.  😉

P.P.S.- I chose the image too. Why? I’m a classy bitch that’s why! I mean…I’m a sweet old lady, with an edge!