*Recording Begins*
Do you think of me James?
Do you ache for me James?
I think of you all the time
You are always on my mind
Everytime I cut myself
Every cut, a new victim
A release of the pain
OF MY HATE!!!!!!!!!!
For those who hurt you…
Again….AND…AGAIN!
Everytime I lose my mind
I think of you
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
I’m looking into the mirror
Smile on my face…
It is for you, my love
It’s not for my husband
It’s for you
I was a better person before I met you
You are my drug
MY ADDICTION!
I gave up much…
That’s why last night
I sent you that e-mail
That’s why last night…
I KILLED HIM FOR YOU HAHA!
I tied him up, like we do for sex
Made out with him…slowly…
The entire time he was inside me
I pretended he was you
Eventually though, I came down from that high
Seeing my husbands face, asking myself why?
I gagged him, took a saw to his dick
LAUGHED AS THE BLOOD SPRAY HIT MY FACE!
I LAUGHED AT HIS AGONY!
I cut out his heart….
I have it in a jar
A reminder of how far I’d go
To prove my love for you!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Maybe just maybe, I’ll be worth your time now…
Always there for you…
Till some abusive ass comes along
Spreads her legs and you forget me again
Too busy to talk
I’m just someone you come to in order to avoid being lonely
When no one else cares about you
That’s okay though, it’s their fault not yours!
That last slut is dead already!
I played with her slowly!
Taking a toy, giving it a razor finish…
I slowly…OOOOOOooh so slowly…
*Whispers*
Covered her mouth…
Shoved it between those legs you love so much
Her muffled screams were beautiful
I tore her internally to pieces
The same way you tear me apart every day!
I couldn’t help myself!
Her pain was my own
WE WERE ONE THAT DAY!
Quite the submissive bitch she was!
It’s part of why you find her so fun right?
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
I KNOW I DID!
I went through the list…I’ve been watching you for a while
I finished them….SLOWLY!
One of your “girlfriends” I took out of the way
Gagged her, tied her down…slathered her in honey…
Let the ants do the rest…
I WATCHED HER DIE SLOWLY AND IT WAS FUN!!!!!!!!!
THE WHORE SHOULDN’T HAVE YOUR ATTENTION!
I do you favors…killing them slowly
They all broke your heart James
I hate seeing you in pain when you go back to them
They do it all again…
All I want for you…
True love and HAPPINESS!
Is that too much to ask?!
I don’t want you to be sad
You need the perfect one
The soul just right for you…
I COULD BE THAT ONE!!!!
Clearly I’m not that one, according to you…
You’ve made that obvious
However, I will be there, until you realize I am
THE ONLY ONE FOR YOU JAMES!
Always killing the ones who hurt you
Making them know OUR PAIN!
I will be there for you when you need me
I will cry myself to sleep
When you inevitably ignore me again
The same way I will simultaneously love
THE HEARTACHE!
I will relish that sweet, slow pain
GET HIGH OFF THE HURT!
Then, we can do it all over again…
Eventually you’ll…
Let the next whore hurt you…
THEN I WILL KILL HER AS WELL!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!
I promise you this…
You will smile in the end…
You will find…
I AM THE ONE FOR YOU!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
SAY HELLO TO HAYLEY’S HEAD!
STUPID BITCH WON’T HURT YOU AGAIN!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
*Recording Ends*
-I Am The One For You-
sinisterdarksoul 
I like the brutality of this. Don’t know what that says about me….😉
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Perhaps it says nothing…perhaps it says everything about you? 😉
I’m intrigued by how someone becomes this way. Do you just meet the right person and they spark something twisted, some sort of obsession within you?
Is there more to it? Why would someone come to this? Is it that persons fault, or is it something uncontrollable within them?
Can it happen to anyone?
I contemplate a lot of things about people’s minds and their souls.
What makes you like the brutality of the poem?
I could go on, but I’ll stop lol.
Thank you for reading. ^_^
Also for the honesty of your thoughts.
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I think that admitting to your darker nature is both frightening and liberating. What I liked was the mix of the loss of moral control and how she completely accepts this part of herself.
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Thank you for that! I always love reading what is going on inside the readers heads when they read something. I know most of my stuff is fairly dark but I’m grateful for the time anyone takes to read anything I’ve written.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts! ^_^
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You are welcome and thank you for not being afraid to go to these dark places.
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You’re quite welcome.
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You have this ability to string a reader along. You go to some dark places, but you ease the reader to them. It’s a talent I hope you continue to cultivate. I don’t always like where I end up, but I’m always impressed because you pull me to wherever you want me to go.
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Thank you! That means a lot coming from you! ^_^
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I mean it. That skill set is something that will serve you well. I’d say that’s your sharpest tool at the moment.
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