Entry 269: 14-9-7-8-20-13-1-18-5

You’ve awoken

How do you feel?

Is the world a beautiful place?

Is it even real?

No doubt you’d like to stand on your beliefs

No doubt you are thinking, where could I possibly be?

I have the answers you seek

Even those you don’t realize, you need

In order to learn the truth

I require a simple sacrifice from you…

#1
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Two holograms of two earths stand before your sight

Choose one…

Left or Right?

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Entry 155: The Emotion Room: Subject 1

*Loud Buzzer*

*Woman shoots up*

Are you awake, Subject 1?

Wh-what? My name is Sydney!

Are you awake, Subject 1?

Wh-Where am I?! 

……………………….

Are you awake, Subject 1?

Please answer the question

FUCK YOU! WHO ARE YOU AND WHERE AM I?!

Stress elevation noted

Subject 1 is clearly awake

Today Subject 1 we will begin testing

You are in The Emotion Room

You need do nothing, the testing will begin momentarily…

What?! My…NAME….IS SYDN-AAAAAAH!!!!!!!!

Subject 1 has fallen to her knees

Appears to be experiencing migraines or some kind of mental break

Noted…

Mom?! Why are you covered in red Mom?

N-NO! NONONONONONO! WHY?!

Tell me you didn’t do it again MOM?! 

You were supposed to be okay!

The doctors said…

*crying*

They said you WERE FINE! 

WHY WOULD YOU KILL YOURSELF?!

I-i-if we hurry….maybe we can stop the bleeding!

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Subject 1 appears to be fully encompassed in her memories

Notable emotions: Grief & Helplessness.

Yes, 911! Please send someone right NOW!

My-M….MY MOM HAS SLIT HER WRISTS!

I just got back from school and…I DON’T KNOW WHY SHE’D DO THIS?!

I-I’m not sure where Dad is?

Work, I think.

Y-wait, I, I think I hear something.

OMG! WHY?!!!!!!!!!!

My Dad?! He-What’s he doing home?

HE’S DEAD! HIS FUCKING CHEST IS OPEN AND THERE’S BLOOD AN-

YOU FUCKING STAY CALM!

SEND SOMEONE ALREADY!

*Sobbing uncontrollably*

MY WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY IS DEAD! I WON’T STAY CALM!

I have……NO ONE! DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT?!

I-I just can’t do this…NOT ANYMORE! NO! 

I-I’m going to kill myself…

I’ll do it with knife my Mom used to kill my Dad and then herself…

Goodbye…

*Slice*

*Thud*

O-OH MY FUCKING GOD!

I KILLED MYSELF?!

Mom & Dad…WHY?!

WHY WOULD SHE KILL DAD?!

S-

*Has trouble breathing*

She…

She was fine.

Perfectly fine after a year.

I-I don’t understand this

Why would you show me this?

What is this place?

What’s the purpose?!

I feel faint.

*Passes Out*

*Loud Buzzer*

WHAT?! 

Subject 1, you are experiencing the following:

Grief

Confusion

Trauma

PTSD

Helplessness

How do you feel?

How do I feel?

FUCK YOU! THAT’S HOW!

Anger added to list of emotions

Subject 1, why did you choose suicide?

Wouldn’t you?  I had nothing left to live for?

MY ENTIRE FAMILY WAS DEAD!

I went to school that morning and everything was fine…

I don’t understand why

DO YOU KNOW WHY?!

This is about you Subject 1

Why choose death?

It…it was all too much. I couldn’t process it.

I had nothing left to live for.

Noted.

Subject 1 believed they had nothing left to live for

Now playing future that could have been

Subject 1 would have had

A husband in the next 4 years

Inspired and saved 300 lives through speaking about her families tragedy

A baby boy

An eventual Nobel Prize

Lived to be a healthy 120

Deceased peacefully in sleep

Gone to Heaven

Now noting: Fear, Regret, Sorrow, Realization, Terror At Future Eternity

Subject 1, results will be noted.

Emotional Analysis Complete:

Subject 1 felt she had nothing left to live for

Her 17th Birthday started fine

Coming home, she discovers Mom dying

Suicide

Calls 911

Pleads with them

Hears noise

Late spasm from deceased father

Father dead

Hope lost

Suicide by knife

Notable:

Subject 1 had no other living family

Likely would have wound up in foster care

Would have met future husband in system

Subject 1 had no way of knowing future

Suicides typically transfer to lower level facility

Transfer Recommendation:

Hell

-The Emotion Room: Subject 1-

 

 

Q&A #1

You hold the world in the palm of your hands soul.

If you crush it, everyone dies save for you and one other of your choosing.

The world and time resets, (in a way) and you can rebuild humanity and the world how you want.

In a way this makes you a God.

Do you crush the world and start anew or do you save the world and let it be, hoping for a brighter futur for humanity yet?

Please souls, let me know what you do and why.

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