Entry 136: The Clocktower: Voice Of Sins Past

I knew everything said could’ve been a trap

Still, I felt I had no choice…

I had to take a gamble on that

I walked to the door, it opened on its own

Like it was gleeful in its own right

Stepping inside, the door did not slam but, it did shut

I heard laughter, everything was dark

Then I heard it

Sara’s screams

It was all too real for me

Torches suddenly lit, a path was revealed

It led straight to a single room

I stepped in, seeing no other choice

As I did I heard a voice

It was one I hadn’t expected

The Kid?!

A Devil In Black

Cunning indeed

Led me to the place

That would become my suffering

Do you know, the pain I’ve felt?

Do you understand, my suffering?!

I’m just a kid, but do you think this place cares?

The things I’ve been subjected to, well…

There are no words for that

I suppose I’ll just have to show you 

A wave of emotion suddenly came over me

Memories flashed quite vividly

I saw this poor kid whipped

He’d been beaten

Other…very unsavory things

I was flooded with memories of what had happened to me

The things my uncle had done

This poor kid, compared to what he had been through

That was nothing

I’m sorry kid…

I wish we hadn’t wound up in this place

Still, what’s done is done

Can you help Sara and I escape?

You are a vile piece of shit!

You could care less what happened to me!

The only things you care about are Sara…and your freedom

THAT’S NOT TRUE! I want to help you out of here too!

Do you?

Too bad…it’s too late for that

I’m a part of this place

If you want to help, simply don’t resist

I couldn’t get my vengeance against the man who took my family

In fact, you prevented that personally

So…it is only fitting, I see you feel that vengeance!

They broke me, they raped me, they did other things to me

I was broken you know that?

The Clocktower helped piece me back together

I can tell you, Sara is going through much the same thing

She is being raped, she is being destroyed, she is being…

Psychologically SHATTERED!

They replay your happiest memories…sometimes making you watch them

While they do the most horrible things to you!

You could never understand…but you will soon

You will be sodomized!

You will be tortured!

Everything you’ve ever loved…it will be broken before you!

You will feel the sorrow of pain past and present!

I’m sure they’ll have you join in on Sara’s torture…

Once their done breaking you!

The Clocktower always wins…

It’s true…there is no escape…

The sooner you accept that…

The sooner you can get the torment over with…

YOU TRULY DON’T UNDERSTAND MY PAIN!

I was shown the worst of things

I was made to do terrible things

The best part…I hated it when they made me kill someone

The time they made me cut myself slowly…again and again…

Eventually though…I began to crave such things!

I enjoyed inflicting pain upon others…and myself

You’ll understand that soon enough though…

It’s all your fault Ren…

So let’s get on with things!

I can’t wait to assist in your suffering!

I heard a chainsaw rev up

Ah shit!

I began to run

Every hall, every door, it all seemed to open to another hallway

There was no way to tell if it was the same one or not

I could hear the chainsaws teeth grinding into a wall not far behind me

Reset

I was stricken with pain, dropped to my knees

I could hear Sara screaming so vividly!

I lost a memory, I could feel that much as well

There was no way for me to tell which one

Was it important? I couldn’t know

I had to keep moving

Oh Ren, run all you want

I’ll keep you going in circles if that is what it takes

You’ll never escape this place!

This place doesn’t change though right?!

No, however, I can make you think it does

That chainsaw sure got you running…

Even if there was never really anything there

It brought you to the room, you are now stepping into

I had stepped inside, it was too late

The door shut behind me and I suddenly felt…woozy

The room was completely pitch black

It was like someone had put gas in it or something

I passed out…

The last things I heard were a child’s laughter

Then these words…

No worries Ren, you’ll be awake in plenty of time for what happens next…

-The Clocktower: Voice Of Sins Past-

 

 

Entry 135: The Clocktower: The Memory Game

I tried to sleep…

I got no resty

When I awoke

She was staring at me

I dreamt a dream

A distant memory?

I’m not entirely sure what it means

There was Sara again

Speaking to me in secret

Telling me things in her life

Perhaps it was in death depending on your reasoning

She just wanted a friend to talk to

Someone who would listen

She needed a friend

That was that then

I listened…my unrequited thoughts

Dying inside, like my shattered heart

In that memory I was given the proverbial

Friend zoning

I had no real idea if that was actually the case

I didn’t know why I cared since we were Reapers

At least that seemed to be the case

We were based in a town known as Black Winter

These dreams…were they memories of my actual past?

I was starting to suspect so

Like leaves on the wind this scene faded

Soon forming another memory

We were talking though I could hear nothing said

Sara was crying

I gave her a hug

I was greatly conflicted

I’m not sure I should say what I thought

I couldn’t hear if I did but…

She looked up at me, tears in her eyes

It appeared she apologized

Then,

Wake up handsome

The facade…I was more than sure of it now

I didn’t know how…but, I knew this to be true

She smiled at me with that deviously perfect smile

Are you feeling okay?

You’ve been out for a while now

I wanted her warm embrace

I wanted to tell her I was okay

However…I knew, she was an illusion

She leaned in to kiss me, I dodged out of the way

That kiss…it always made me forget

I rushed outside only to find

The sky was black, lightning flashed

That beautiful field of sunflowers…

It had all wilted and the flowers were black

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I turned around and it began to rain

The most twisted smile had now formed

On what was once, a perfect face

You want me…don’t you Ren?

The truth was I did…at least…I wanted that perfect reality

I didn’t think this was that though

I’m sorry, your princess is in another castle!

*Wink*

WHERE’S SARA! I’M SICK OF YOUR FUCKING GAMES!

I’m sorry, Sara isn’t able to come to the phone right now…

Don’t bother leaving a message…we are breaking her as we speak!

BYE!

The field shook, and lightning began to violently strike

The figure before me smiled

Behind this wicked face a castle rose up

All black, made of skull and bones

A darkness resonated from it that I’ve never felt

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I guess we’re through trying to fool you

We couldn’t break you psychologically…

Rest assured though, that means we will try other methods!

You want Sara?

Good luck!

I’m betting you die trying!

Or…

Something to that effect

I think it’s time I give you some truly fun news

Remember that suicide Sara committed…

It was murder! 

Oh sure she was on the edge…

She kept holding on

We tired of this

Taking control of her…

We happily finished the bitch!

I felt a rage instantly take me over

I needed to control it but I was seeing red!

You are awfully quiet Ren

What, nothing to say?

Okay, well know

We have been having all kinds of fun with Sara

Sexually, psychologically, all kinds of things

Soon, she will be with us truly

I think then it will be fitting to have her suffer some more

Maybe we’ll even make you punish her?

Fun fact Ren…

This time you’ve spent in this place

Most notably this fantasy

It’s been slowing eating away at you

You may have noticed multiple memories, yes?

My scythe materialized and I came for this monster in Sara’s image!

She disappeared and reappeared closer to the doors of the castle

I don’t think so Ren…

You want revenge, you want the real Sara…

Then you’d better listen

Your having seen through our facade was unfortunate…

However this will be even more fun!

You have to go inside this castle to find Sara

She’s in the deepest depths of the nightmare before you

Here’s the fun part

Once you enter, and you will…

Every hour that goes by, you won’t get a reset

Nope, this room and place is safe from that…

Instead, you’ll lose a memory

That’s right,

Every hour, a memory gone

Eventually you’ll be a clean slate

We’ll make you whatever we want to!

It’s perfect really!

I’m betting I’ll reach Sara and escape this hell hole…

Long before I lose myself!

Oh yeah…about that…

Step foot through that door and you’ll find

A special rule applies as well

Every hour you don’t get to Sara and escape…

Well…I’ll let you discover that soon enough…

Just know Sara will pay as well…

So, soul, you up for it?

The moment you step through those doors…

THE MEMORY GAME BEGINS!

-The Clocktower: The Memory Game-

 

Entry 134: The Clocktower: The Perfect Reality?

I awoke to the most amazing smell

A home cooked meal from my beautiful wife

Her smile, so sweet

Wake up handsome

I’ve made us some food

You know, that thing your stomach always craves

She turned to put food on the plates

Sara is so gorgeous

I’ve got to be the lucki-

WAKE UP REN!

I am awake Sara!

Huh? I’m sorry love, did you say something?

That gorgeous smile…how did I ge-

THIS ISN’T REAL!

That’s Sara’s voice again…but…

Here you go!

She kisses me as she hands me the plate

I’m immediately taken to blissful memories

Was I thinking something?

Why the blank stare? Are you going to try what I prepared?

Of course! I was just lost in thought

She smiles at me, her smile is so perfect

TOO PERFECT!

Huh? There it was again.

It’s definitely Sara’s voice but…

I’m looking at her right now and she is just smiling.

Are you feeling okay? Were you not hungry? Did I do something wrong?

No, I wi-

DON’T EAT THAT!

The shock of her voice makes me drop my fork

I go to reach down but Sara is already there

She bends over to pick up the fork

Wow, she really is perfect!

Her body, every part of her…now that I think about it

Why haven’t I noticed this before?

I’ll go wash this, you sure you are feeling okay?

I think I just need to go for a walk and do some thinking…

Is that okay?

SURE!

She says this quite happily…I’m beginning to think something is off

I’m hit with a memory…or something

I’m with Sara, we are somehow meeting for the first time

This doesn’t seem right…why are we carrying scythes?

You know, it’s easier to eat if you don’t lose your food silly

I mean, if I was your wife I’d be pretty pissed if I made something for you

Then you just wasted it…I’m Sara by the way!

Huh?

I step out for a walk, I look around, everything seems fine

It all feels real

In a flash I see a place…a black Clocktower?

I’m chasing after Sara…I’m too late!

Just as quickly as the flash, I’m back again

Hello there handsome!

WHOA! You trying to give me a heart attack?!

She grabs my arm and smiles

It’s a perfect smile…but for some reason, I feel something off

Like it is a facade?

Now that I think about it…am I dreaming?

Think Ren…what was the last thing you remember before this?

Sara, you, the field of flowers…

No, it can’t be a dream

I remember proposing to Sara

I remember our wedding

I have so many memories!

THEY’RE NOT REAL!

That voice…it doesn’t seem like a lie…but how?

Hey, is it alright if I lay down for a bit…alone?

I might be coming down with something

I wouldn’t want you to get sick

She seemed to study me for a sec

Of course, that’s so sweet of you my love!

I knew I picked the right guy the day I met you!

*Smile*

Um, where did we first meet?

I suppose you wouldn’t remember

It was on a snowy day, at the park

Everything was perfect!

You asked me if I had met the guy of my dreams

It was a cheesy pickup line I’ll admit

It worked though

I went along with it and said

Must be the handsome guy in front of me

We introduced ourselves, it was beautiful

Love at first sight!

Sadly, the car wreck happened

It’s where you got those scars

We almost broke up

It took months before you accepted you knew me again

We rekindled things over the years

In some ways it was beautiful you know?

I had a 2nd chance to fall in love all over again!

I was lost in her words

It sounded beautiful, her words felt real

Maybe she was right…

Maybe I really just…wasn’t feeling well?

Sara kissed me spontaneously!

I felt my breath taken away

She was so perfect!

Am I forgetting something?

-The Clocktower: The Perfect Reality?-

Entry 133: The Clocktower: Pleasant Room

I climbed for what felt an eternity

Every hour that passed a shift happened

Which led to more stairs

More climbing

Just when I felt it was becoming mind numbing

I reached the top and as I went up into a room

I was blinded by sunshine

Lost in disbelief

I was in a field of daisies

Looking down there was only soil and more ground

There were no stairs

Was I in the Clocktower anymore?

Looking across the field I saw a tree

Standing under it was the most beautiful woman!

Turning around she smiled at me

All at once my heart skipped a beat!

SARA?!

Could it be true?

She had no scars

Where once there had been torment and pain

Their rested now…

Only happiness

I walked over to her, in shock

Had I escaped the Clocktower?

No, this must be a trick

Sara looked so beautiful in her white dress

I must admit, though I thought it a trick

I was at a loss for words…

I was smitten

All at once tears streamed from my eyes

Tears of happiness I hadn’t felt in a lifetime

She approached me, the most peaceful smile on her face

Sara hugged me, I was lost in her warmth and embrace

Hey there Ren…I missed you handsome

Come sit with me please

I walked with her, soon sitting under the tree

She leaned against me

This is peaceful, isn’t it Ren?

I’m always happiest, sitting here under this tree…

…With you…

You’ve always brought me peace

………..

Say something silly!

I was lost in the moment

I had no words

In her warm embrace…I knew peace

This was perfect

I felt like I was forgetting something

Everything felt right

I smiled, looked into those beautiful blue eyes

You are the world to me

She smiled, then we both leaned in

With one kiss passion flowed through my veins

As we locked lips, I tasted sweet eternity

Sara smiled, we kissed some more

I no longer felt I was forgetting anything

Passion flowed, souls intertwined

We made love, underneath that tree

Sara’s soft body was pure ecstasy

The way she embraced me

The taste on her lips

Sweet passion, I felt between those gorgeous legs

Yes, this was perfect, as is she

My love, my one and only

I gazed into her eyes

She stared into mine

Every beautiful thrust made us transcend life

Her warm touch, sweet release

In her eyes was my eternity of peace

We lay there, naked for a while

I took in the sight of that beautiful body

We kissed, we made love again

There are no words for this woman

So I suppose…love will have to suffice

As we finished again, laying in one another’s arms

We just enjoyed that moment for what seemed eternity

She smiled at me again and soon got dressed

A teasing wink, a mischievous grin she spoke to me

I love you Ren

I love you too Sara

Those 3 words…I love you…they meant the world to me

We soon sat there, finally fully clothed

Together we watched the sun set

Then she took me to our home

We made dinner and we laughed

Talking away about a life time of memories

The day we first met

My confession, that I liked her

Moments of happiness

The time we almost broke up

The happiness in our reunion

Our wedding and our marriage vows

She and I had a life time of memories

Though, we were still young

We spoke of the first time we made love

I knew we had a life time more

To create new memories

I loved this woman, down to my very soul

I was so lucky, to be with this sweet

Perfect angel…

She made me complete

The night was getting late

We eventually went to bed

I fell asleep quickly, holding Sara in my arms

This moment was perfect

There was no better way to spend the rest of the days of my life

As long as I had Sara

Nothing in the world could ever make me unhappy again…

-The Clocktower: Pleasant Room-

 

Entry 132: The Clocktower: Reflection

I wandered for hours

Having finally escaped

I pondered what might be next for me?

This place gave me scars of all kinds

I bore the obvious physical scars

Deeper though were the ones I bore in my mind

Deepest were the ones in my soul

I’d done some sick things to get out of that place

That woman reminding me of the worst of my memories

The Clocktower had reset every hour and things shifted

Still, everything was quiet…too quiet I thought to myself

There was no haunting voices

No psycho trying to murder me

It was just endless wandering

I had too much time to reflect

What had I become in this place?

Reset

The Clocktower shifted and this time

There was a bridge that led to a platform

So I continued along my path

The moment I crossed the bridge

Like glass, it shattered behind me

The platform was circular

Below me lit up white flames inside a case

It was a clock I stood on

All black

It read 12

Welcome Ren

It is time we learn your true motivations

The voice was dark but there was no one there

Perhaps it was The Clocktower itself

If so though…why was it not taunting me as before?

Are you proud of your actions thus far?

No, I said looking away

I did what I felt necessary…

The dial below my feet seemed to be keeping track of time

Perhaps until the next reset?

It read 12:05

The platform raised

Would you say you are a good soul?

I’m not sure I can judge such a thing

I’d like to think so…but then again

Do men of war see themselves as villains?

I believe they see themselves as hero’s

Even if they are evil at heart

The platform raised again before coming to a stop

The Kid you sent to eternal torment

Do you believe you did the right thing?

I’m not even sure how to answer that.

I obviously didn’t think it right

Then again, it was about survival right?

He seemed very eager to off me

Probably thinking about his own motivations

Not unlike myself…

I didn’t want it to end like that…

I meant well but you know how that goes…

The road to Hell is paved with good intentions…

I thought maybe there would be a way to move forward

Perhaps a way to release their souls in the end

I’d like to do so, should I survive this

Then again…I’m starting to think that won’t be something I can do…

The platform began its ascent again…this time it didn’t stop

If there was a way to escape…would you give up the other souls to do so?

I’d love to say I’d take their place…

But I’ve done some things as of late that make me question myself

Am I the soul I thought I was…or am I just another monster in this place?

There is definitely darkness inside of me

As with the Kid…it usually comes out when it becomes about survival

So, I have every intention of saying yes…I’d take there place

That is what I’d do

However, I won’t truly know unless I get to that point…

…I guess

Do you enjoy inflicting suffering on others?

Not really…but I’m aware some part of me likes it

Some part of me enjoys inflicting suffering upon

Those who do the same to others

Still that is enjoyment in another’s suffering so if we are going

Straight yes or no…then yes

That’s hard to say, but I’m learning not to lie to myself anymore

I would hope my motivations would be considered…

If you had a chance at true vengeance with your Uncle

or

Freedom from this place…could you forgive him in order to ensure

Your escape?

I felt a flood of memories…

My blood boiled at the thought

I grit my teeth without even realizing it

WHAT HE DID IS UNFORGIVABLE!

I’LL NEVER FORGIVE HIM!

What if another’s freedom were on the line instead…

Say Sara’s or The Kid’s?

I felt myself gasp in shock

The question threw me off…

I’d like to say I would…but…no promises

Very well…continue your ascent

The platform raised and the voice faded

I was left with only my thoughts as the platform stopped

What had I become?

Was I truly a monster?

I continued across another bridge

A huge door stood before me

It had screaming faces etched into it

Above it read:

Seek help from beyond

I wasn’t sure what that meant but seeing as there was no way in

I turned and went up a staircase to the right of it

-The Clocktower: Reflection-

 

 

 

Entry 131: The Clocktower: Malice

Reset

TIME FOR YOU TO DIE!

IF YOU CAN’T…

THAT’S FINE!

I’LL KILL YOU AGAIN AND AGAIN

LISTEN TO YOUR CRIES!

YOU’RE TRAPPED IN HERE WITH ME NOW!

___________________

What’s happening?!

How can he see me?

I’m the one who is supposed to be torturing here!

I nee-

*Gurgle*

*Vomiting blood*

____________________

CHOKE ON YOUR BLOOD YOU STUPID BITCH!

THE SCYTHE TO YOUR THROAT…WE’RE JUST BEGINNING!

OH! YOU FELL TO THE GROUND! THAT’S OKAY!

I’LL KEEP BUTCHERING YOU ANYWAY!

STAB!STAB!STAB!STAB!STAB!STAB!STAB!
HACK!HACK!HACK!HACK!HACK!HACK!HACK!

LOOK AT ALL THIS BLOOD! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I DON’T THINK WE’RE DONE!

YOU WANT A REAL MIND FUCK?!

OKAY!

I’VE GOT SOMETHING SPECIAL IN MIND FOR YOU!

Reset

_____________________

Omg! He’s lost his mind?! This has never happened!

Why isn’t he suffering?

*Lights fade*

W-what is happening?

*Whimpers*

I-I’m supposed to control this domain…

_____________________

*Whispering in the shadows*

You’re right, this is a lot of fun…

Guess where I am?

I can see you so clearly

Why was I so afraid before?

You are nothing to be afraid of…

Full of mind games

Thinking torture is fun?

Well…I’ve got a new game for you

How many times can I slice you?

How many times can I make you bleed?

The reset will happen again in an hour…

Then we can continue to see how many ways I can kill you

Slowly picking you apart

IS THAT A GOOD ENOUGH MIND FUCK FOR YOU?!

_______________________

AHHH!!!!!

What can I do?

I’ve never seen this side of anyone?

Normally they just break down

Fall apart

They become my pla-

AAAA-

______________________

Mmm….your blood tastes best fresh!

Did it hurt when I cut open your throat?

I guess you’ll shut up for once!

Ready to let me move on yet?

Oh, no answer?

Okay….

Looks like there is more fun to be had!

Reset

I’VE GOT A HAMMER LOOKING FOR YOUR HEAD!

SMASH!CRUNCH! HAHAHAHAHA! YES MORE!

SPLAT! WOW YOUR FACE LOOKS GREAT CAVED IN!

SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!
SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!
SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!
SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!
SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!
SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!
SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!SMASH!

I’LL CRUSH YOUR BONES INTO DUST!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Reset

_________________________

HAVE TO RUN! HAVE TO RUN!

*Crying*

*Machine starting up*

Oh God…no…

__________________________

FOUND YOU!

*Screaming*

Oh Ren, we are going to have so much fun you said…

YOU WERE RIGHT!

I wonder how it feels to die going face first into a meat grinder?

YOU’RE ABOUT TO FIND OUT!

Oh and we’ll do this again and again until everything resets!

*Bones crunching*

*Body mangling*

Look at you, back for more so soon…

I guess you like this…

DON’T YOU?!

__________________

I’ve never seen such malice in someone before

I die again and again

Each time worse than the last

This guy’s completely lost his mind!

Reset

I don’t have time to catch my breath

He kills me with fists

Again and again 

Until…

Reset

He strangles me slowly

I think he smiles as he watches the life fade out of my eyes

Reset…

I can’t keep this up

On my knees…

He shoves a jackhammer in my throat and starts it up

Reset…

I couldn’t possibly let him go but…

He seems to have me at a severe disadvantage

I feel the teeth as the chainsaw eats its way through me…

Reset…

My head is in a vice…he turns it slowly…

I’m pretty sure he gets off on my screams…

Reset…

NO! WAIT!

A blowtorch to my face

Reset…

I GIVE UP!

I’m thrown in the furnace anyways

MY SKIN! FUCK! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
FUCK! STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’M BEGGING YOU! PLEASE STOP!

Reset…

_________________

You know…now that I think about it…

You have a pretty attractive body

I have needs…

What’s that?

You wouldn’t like that?

YOU DIDN’T SEEM TO CARE BEFORE!

You remember…

BACK WHEN YOU WERE RAPING MY MIND!

That’s okay…I’m plenty of things…

A rapist isn’t one of them…

LET ME GO!

NOW!

_________________

I can’t stop crying…I’ve snapped…

Beaten at my own game I guess

O…Okay…

It’s not like you have any hope of escaping anyways

HAHAHAHAHA!

The Clocktower always wins in the end…

Reset

-The Clocktower: Malice-

Entry 130: The Clocktower: Our Secret Game

Mmm…I still sense resistance

I don’t like being played

So now Ren

We are going to have to really bring the pain

You see I just happen to know

A sick and twisted place you blocked out of your mind

A memory you forgot because you were traumatized

This should break you once and for all

So what do you say you laughing puppet

Want to hear a story?

I promise you, when we’re through…

There will be no fight left in you!

Once upon a time there was a cute little red headed boy

He adored his Mom and Dad

Though he always looked forward to summer time

You see, that was when he got to go see his Aunt & Uncle

The two were so kind

He really loved the time he spent fishing with his Uncle Tom

This boy was named Ren and he was but 7 when it happened…

…The first time…

N-NO! What?!

Shut up Ren, I’m telling a story about your past…

It would be extremely rude if I interrupted you.

Anywho, his Uncle Tom took Ren camping overnight

It was so beautiful outside

The trees, the lovely things…

It was in the tent though where the real action would happen!

S-shut up! It…I don’t like where this is going!

*Glare*

One more interruption Ren and I’ll get extremely detailed for you!

Uncle Tom came into Ren’s tent late that night

He was carrying a recording device

What are you doing Uncle? Ren asked

Oh I’m making a movie, want to help?

Ren was confused

Who makes a movie this late?

Uncle Tom smiled and said

I want to play a game, but a camera is required

It is our secret game, so you can’t tell anyone okay?

O-okay?

Good, we have to take off all our clothes

Then, we need to get real close

Think of it like Simon says…

Just listen and do what I say for you to.

Ren trusted his uncle like no other

He did as was required…

Didn’t you Ren?

*Smile*

W-w-w-WHAT?!

Yes Ren, you no doubt feel the emotions and memories

They’re coming back now, aren’t they?

*Sobbing*

N…n…NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I-NO! NO THAT CAN’T BE TRUE!

It’s…it has to be another one of your games!

You’re LYING!

Tsk…tsk Ren.

I really wish you would realize here we don’t lie

Here we deal in truths…

Notably those even you have forgotten

Perhaps I should continue to elaborate for you…

PLEASE! STOP!

Uncle Tom and Ren had grown real close

They stayed the entire week camping

Chasing bugs and fishing during the day

Playing their secret game at night

It certainly felt as though something wasn’t right to Ren

Uncle…I don’t like this game…

With a smile Ren’s uncle whispered into his ear

Do as I say or something unfortunate will happen to Mom and Dad

I made well sure you would wind up with us in the event of their unfortunate…

…Death…

Ren cried all night that night

He prayed to God, that this would just end

He begged and pleaded as it happened again and again

Praying to God to hear him

Eventually he fell obedient and just did as he said

Uncle “Bad Touch” he was instructed to call him

Went easier on Ren if he was obedient

Eventually after 2-3 years he lost it

The day his Uncle died

Ren stopped remembering

His mind making everything that happened

A blur, and for the most part he believed his Uncle a good man

Occassionally he had a nightmare

However his mind, it tricked him into thinking that was all it was

But we know better than that now…

…Don’t we Ren?

H-Ha-HaHAHAHAHAHAHA!/*Sobbing*

You know….I promised myself I’d never be a victim

T-this was before I forgot everything…

It was supposed to be better to forget

S-so mentally that is what I did

Thanks for reminding me of my suffering

My…SORROW!

THE WORST YEARS OF MY FUCKING LIFE!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

There is no true forgetting though…

Deep in my soul, I ALWAYS BORE THE SCAR!

SOME PART OF ME STILL REMEMBERED IT WASN’T A NIGHTMARE!

IT WAS A FUCKED UP REALITY!!!

YOU DUG TOO FUCKING DEEP YOU DISEMBODIED BITCH!

I ALWAYS WANTED TO FUCKING KILL MY UNCLE FOR THIS!

TOO FUCKING BAD REN! HE DIED BEFORE I COULD!

I USED TO DREAM OF KILLING HIM!

*World begins to break as though glass*

What?!

……….

I can’t kill him…so I guess….

*Smile*

YOU ARE GOING TO FUCKING HAVE TO DO!

It’s impossible! You couldn’t kill me…

I’m every bit a part of this pla-

I CAN SEE YOU NOW!!!!!!!!

WHAT?!

I’M DONE BEING THE VICTIM!

I suggest you…

…run…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

-The Clocktower: Our Secret Game-

Entry 129: The Clocktower: Welcome To My House Of Psychological Suffering

*Static*

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Hello Ren

Allow me to introduce

Myself to you

I’d like to welcome you

To your final resting place

A nightmare it is going to be

As I bring you to insanity

It all began the moment you stepped into this place

I want you to see what true madness means

How great it feels as I work my way into your mind

You continue to run

That just makes it more fun

What’s behind door #1?

Oh that’s just your everyday hanging

If you look closely at the face

You’ll realize it is your mother you see!

OH MY WHAT FUN!

THE CHAOS HAS JUST BEGUN!

YOU MY VOICE INSIDE YOUR MIND

SLOWLY TEARING YOU UP INSIDE!

I see your hurt, I feel your pain

WELCOME TO MY FUN HOUSE OF PSYCHOLOGICAL SUFFERING!!!!!

Door #2

Ooop, looks like it’s your Dad

The night he shot himself in the head!

You see once you died your family fell apart!

If that one didn’t sting

That’s okay…

Soon…

I’LL BRING YOU TO YOUR FUCKING KNEES!

I feel you beginning to break

This place has taken too much of a toll on you

I think you should know, there is no way to save Sara’s soul!

You can however open door #3 and rewatch her death

A personal favorite of mine, I wonder if her killer

GOT OFF ON HER FUCKING SCREAMS!

Aww, did that hurt?

Maybe you should stop your search

Behind every door is a new pain

A devastating memory

You see, I mix and blend the perfect concoction of pain

I bring about misery!

Oh, that’s still not enough?

Okay…I’m going to take all your worst nightmares

Then I’ll make them a reality!

Yes, I can hear your internal screams!

Keep fueling my sweet sadistic fantasy!

Another door, what’s that?

The Kid you sent straight into eternal torment!

Did it feel good, when you ended his soul?

I think some part of you liked it

Some part of you felt good inside

Admit it…

YOU WERE HAPPY TO SEE HIM DEAD!

IT MEANT YOU WERE THE ONE WHO SURVIVED!

Still, you try to run…but it is becoming harder now

Those internal screams starting to vocalize

I want to see your tears

I want to taste your suffering

I can’t wait to see you break!

It is going to happen…

I can feel you on the brink

Trying to keep it together

When suddenly I remind you of all the pain

In you the night you died

It may have happened fast

However the pain, felt eternal didn’t it?

The moment your aunt got the call

She threw herself 12 stories to her death

DID YOU FUCKING KNOW THAT?!

Such sweet ecstasy knowing that you had so many great memories

Now you come to this place and learn how it meant nothing!

Oh why are you on the ground?

Don’t give up now Ren

MY FUN IS ONLY FUCKING BEGINNING!

I think I’ll turn up the pain…

…Ever so slowly excelling that migraine!

You’re delirious now

You can barely see

All you will soon see is the madness and suffering!

ALL YOUR PAIN! ALL YOUR FEARS!

WITNESS THEM AT ONCE!

I WANT YOU TO CRY TILL YOU BLEED!

I’m relishing watching your psyche torn apart beautifully!

This is my place, I welcome you to your end

Now run ever so madly!

There you go…now maybe I’ll have you tear apart your face!

STILL I WANT MORE!

YOU’LL BE MY PSYCHOLOGICAL WHORE!

Now that I’m inside

I’m whispering inside your mind

There can be no escape

YOU ARE MY BITCH IN THIS PLACE!

Go over to that wall and bang your head on it till I say stop!

I want to watch you bleed!

That’s a good Ren

Keep it going

I pleasure myself to the sight of your psychological suffering!

Go ahead and laugh

I want to hear you madly cackling!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Can you hear me now?

Will you do anything for me?

YES!YES!YES!YES!HAHAHA!YES!

Mmm…but we have only just begun

I’m sure there is no escape for you now!

This will surely be fun!

You’re all mine…

…My lovely new plaything…

-The Clocktower: Welcome To My House Of Psychological Suffering-

Entry 128: The Clocktower: It Always Wins

I watched Ren run

I pondered if he would make it

This sick monstrosity of a Clocktower

It had a way of breaking you

I remember the night

So long ago

The sick destructive visage of what befell me then

I lost everything

My wife died, in a car crash with my kids

I was dying…a fate I somewhat welcomed

That was until someone came to me

He talked really smooth

Speaking of a Clocktower

A potential escape

He spoke of the possibility to change my families fate

So I did it, I went in

This devilish looking one in black smiling as I did

I went inside, unaware of the terrors within the place

Torment & Suffering were daily for me

Eventually though, I reached the end

My family were brought back from the dead

They were sent back, living happily

The reality they were sent back to was sweet

I had passed away but they had found happiness

The thing I hadn’t expected though…

In trade for this happy 2nd chance at life

I would sit upon a throne, suffering eternally

The only way I would get reprieve…

If a new King came and replaced me

So here I sit, having agreed to the trade

My family happy, myself suffering

Hoping this Ren will reach me

Thinking it is likely he will be like the rest

Die and writhe in eternal torture long before reaching me

I am in constant pain

This place feeds on that…and others suffering

It twists your emotions, learns what will break you

At this point it uses it against you

Every secret, ever lie, all your fears, your desires

The Clocktower smiles, it feeds on this

It is a living, breathing monstrosity

In the end…it always wins

I wish it were dead

That there were a way to end it

I’ve tried to trick it

I’ve tried to find a way to end it

Nothing but more madness and suffering

That is what I got in return

The Clocktower always wins…

If Ren were to get here…

If he were to take my place

I’d be set free

Only through death…still

It would be a reprieve

The Clocktower would still win…

It would have a new King

A new fuel source to inflict suffering

There is only madness

There is never any end

The Clocktower always wins…

-The Clocktower: It Always Wins-

Entry 127: The Clocktower: Fragmented

What have I done/Survived/You’re a MONSTER!

This place tricked me/You did what you had to do/You’re SICK!

What is HAPPENING TO ME?!/You are stronger than before/ You’re PATHETIC!

Got to keep moving/NEVER STOP MOVING!/YOU SHOULD ROT HERE!

There has to be a way to free everyone?!/Who cares about them?/KILL YOURSELF!

SHUT UP!/HEHAHAHAHAHAHA!/I HOPE I DIE SOON!

FUCK!/FEED ME!/NO HOPE FOR A CHILD KILLER!

I swung my scythe against the wall/IT FELT GOOD!/I DESERVE NO HOPE!

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! STOP IT!!!!!!! WHY?!!!!!!

Millions screamed in agony!/IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL CACOPHONY OF SCREAMS!/ Die…

You hurt only the souls within these walls!

There is no hope for you now!

I WILL NEVER GIVE UP!/I’LL TEAR YOU APART HAHAHAHAAHA!/Kill me quickly…

AAAHHH!!!!!/I WANT TO TASTE YOUR BLOOD!/It is all going to end painfully…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! What’s wrong soul?

Feeling a tad split?

Conflicted…maybe a little insane?

Oh but this is just the beginning of your suffering!

Answer me this!/MMMmmmm…I’LL RIP IT FROM YOU SLOWLY!/I’m going to die…

Can I save everyone?/I JUST WANT TO KILL EVERYONE!/It’s no use, I’m joining them…

You can try…although I doubt you’ll survive…

The Clocktower rang its bell/THE RESET IS HAPPENING AGAIN!/Endless suffering…

I knew outside another soul/ HAS DIED HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!/No chance…

I now stood in a room/BLOOD EVERYWHERE!/This is how it ends?

I’m overcome with grief/IT HURTS SO WONDERFULLY!/I hate myself…

I see Sara tied to a bed/ SO NAKED AND VULNERABLE!/I can’t watch this…

She is being whipped/SUCH LOVELY BLOOD AND SCREAMS!/………..

STOP IT!/LISTEN TO HER AGONY!/…*Crying internally*…

THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT REN! DO YOU EVEN CARE?!

OF COURSE I DO!/LOVE TO WATCH YOU SUFFER!/I just want to die…PLEASE!!!!

Reset/OH YAY! SUFFERING!/When will it end?

It’s a chainsaw this time/BLOOD ALL OVER US!/I deserve the suffering…

Reset

I try to use my scythe/IT DOESN’T STOP THE MAN OR HIS KNIFE!/Carved her up…

Reset

FUCKING STOP WILL YOU?!/THE HAMMER IS A NICE TOUCH!/I give up…*SLICE!*

Reset

WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS?!/YES BEAT THE BITCH WITH YOUR FISTS!

Reset

NOOOOO!!!!!/YESSSS!!!! NOW HAVE HER MAKE YOU A SANDWICH!

Reset

I SWEAR TO YOU I’LL FIND A WAY TO TEAR YOU TO PIECES!!!!!/SHE HUNG HERSELF!!!

Reset

I feel something in me snap…all at once the other voices inside cease…

He has her hanging from a cross…I hear her screams!

I rush forth in a blind rage…

Reset

She is being drug down a blood soaked hall screaming!

I FEEL MY BLOOD BOILING!

Follow her…prove your resolve!

I look forward to watching all the ways she’ll scream in pain

I look forward to…WATCHING YOU BREAK!

There is no escape from my walls!

Just ask The Clocktower King…

HE KNOWS TRUE SUFFERING!!!!!

I rush down those blood soaked halls…

I have to hold out hope…for Sara…for the kid…

For my own sanity…

-The Clocktower: Fragmented-