Entry 294: I Couldn’t Save Myself

Sometimes I hear a knocking

Beneath my feet

Sometimes I swear I hear something

Speaking to me

Always during Winter

Always on the lake

Looking down though

Not a soul is around

…There is just me & the ice…

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Looking up, I cry my name

I try to warn myself

Of a terrible fate

One that hasn’t happened

One that lurks beneath…

I’ve waited,

Knowing you’d arrive

I’ve spoke to you through nightmares

Still, here…

I find you.

No matter how much I scream

You can’t see or hear a thing…

IT’S COMING! JUST RUN! 

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I swear I hear screaming

I’m reminded it’s just the wind

I’m sure I’m alright

Just my mind playing tricks on me again

When I was little

I used to be afraid of this place

Then I took up ice skating

At which point

My fear, faded.

Sometimes, I get a feeling

Almost like someone is watching me

Inside,

A darkness resonates from within

I can’t make it out

It’s probably nothing.

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BANG! BANG! BANG!

I try with all my might!

The harder I push on the ice

The more hopeless I feel inside!

Why won’t she pay attention?!

Then again, it makes sense

I never did

That’s why

…I’m soon to be dead…

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When I’m skating

I feel a fearlessness inside!

Nothing can hurt me!

It’s when I feel the most alive!

*Skitter Skitter Skitter*

What was that sound?

I’m sure I heard something this time

…Right?

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RUN! LEAVE THIS PLACE!

IT’S COMING FOR YOU!

IT LIVES IN THE LAKE!

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I feel sick

Perhaps I should leave?

What is that clawing

Coming from beneath me?

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It takes only a second

It followed her all the way

I can do nothing

To change things…

I feel myself fading

A projection of my own mind

My body now consumed

…I’m dying…

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*Gurgling*

I’m floating…

I think I’ve lost my lower half.

I’m fading fast!

I never see

What has brought my death

Though in my final moments

I think I see myself?

Then I feel the crunch

…As everything goes black…

I Couldn’t Save Myself

 

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