Entry 256: I Still Hear You Laughing

I hear you

Cackling within my mind

Whispering to me

Never far behind

In my dreams

When I wake

Always there

Always tormenting me

The nights are long for most

Here, they are never ending

I have no idea what you want

From whence you came

I imagine Hell

Though I’ll never understand

Why you are always laughing?

I only ever hear the laugh

A dark laughter indeed

I never see your face

You’re forever a mystery to me

It’s unnerving at best

Down right disturbing at worst

Sometimes I wake in the manor at night

Sometime I find things

No doubt things you’ve left behind

Like the dead cat outside of my room

The mutilated children’s bodies

What have I done to deserve the unease?

Why all the dead bodies?

Even now, a chill constantly runs through the air

In this house

It’s always freezing!

 

I tried to leave

But,

I always wound up in the same place

Always at the manor door

Always 2:20 a.m.

Never does time pass

Yet,

Things within are always changing

For the worse, I might add!

Sometimes I try a door

One that wasn’t there before

The next thing I know, I’m lost!

Sometimes I can hear an unknown groaning

YOU NEVER HARM ME!

YOU NEVER KILL ME!

YOU ENDLESSLY TORMENT ME!

I haven’t had a proper visitor…

One among the living that is

In so long…

I’ve honestly considered I might be dead

Is it true?

Is this Hell?

Did you take me an eternity ago?

Perhaps during the few times I did sleep

The nightmares in which you’d constantly hound me!

Somehow you wound up here

In this estate

Somehow, everything changed.

I have not seen the sunlight in ages

I walk by candlelight

Some nights I visit your sick machinations!

I wander the halls

Where you left all those bodies hanging!

What is it you want?

Who are you?!

I’ve given up trying to escape

I just hoped

One night

You’d show me the way

Provide me with Death

Give me the answers I seek!

STOP TORMENTING ME!

I suppose that’s too much to ask

I should check the door

No doubt the knocking I hear

Is some new horror

You’ve left me

Maybe this time

I’ll be able to die?

I haven’t eaten in ages

Yet, I don’t seem to crave food

What gypsy’s curse

Have you put upon me?

Opening the door

There sits

Empty bottles of alcohol

I don’t understand

I’m tired of your games

I think I’ll hang myself now!

I put the noose around my neck

Dropping from the bannister

7 stories down

SNAP SHOULD’VE GONE MY NECK!

However,

I find

I’M STILL VERY MUCH ALIVE!

I loosen the noose

Put my feet to the ground

I see only darkness

In the shadows

You hide

I’m still trapped

Here inside

I give up

I don’t understand

…In my mind however…

-I Still Hear You Laughing-

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