Entry 254: The Emotion Room: Subject 4

Please state your name

W-what?

Subject 4, please state your name

Jeff…my name is Jeff

What happened Jeff?

What do you mean, what happened?

Which one were you?

I, I do-

EAGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I remember a hospital

I remember a girl

She…

She had a knife to my throat?

What was she saying?

I’m not sure…

It’s like a movie on mute

I can’t make it out.

I can’t even read her lips

She’s shouting too quickly!

EAGHHH!!!!!

Wait…what?!

Yes, Jeff?

There’s a detective but,

HE’S ME?!

MY HEAD!!!!!

It’s understandable you’d experience discomfort…

Try to remain focused though.

We know you were an only child, so there was no twin…

Who are you, Jeff?

I-I met her at a bar?

I don’t remember her name

I think I was working a case?

What?!

Why is she?

I don’t know who she is…

I know there’s an unmarked grave

Were we close at one point?

She was innocent…I think?

I said not to jump

I shouldn’t do it…

Don’t jump, Jeff?

Is there anyone else in the room?

Yes…

ME AGAIN?!

I’m smiling!

I’m screaming at myself to do it!

I look depraved!

The other me is telling me not to

The girl has a knife to my throat…right?

Wait…

Yes, Jeff?

She’s there, but, it looks as though

I’m holding the knife?

Don’t do it, baby?

She whispered into my ear

It wasn’t your fault

WHY?! What’s happening?!

I’m having another memory…

I ask her if I need to walk her home?

She says no

I leave her

Then…I see a man

It’s me…

It looks like the me in the room telling me to jump

He has a knife

He’s…CUTTING HER OPEN!

He…I? Covered in blood?!

I BURIED HER?!

NONE OF IT MAKES SENSE!

HOW IS IT NOT MY FAULT?!

I’m screaming the same thing at myself in the hospital

Other workers are in the room now

I think they are trying to talk me down?!

What happens next, Jeff?

The one urging me to kill myself…that me…is lunging for me!

I step back but…fall out the window behind me…

Did you fall out…or did you jump?

I’m not sure?

Do you remember the girls name?

I remember her telling me she’s sorry…

Then I hit the pavement & I awoke here…

AM I DEAD?!

That is irrelevant

What do you mean?

IT SEEM PRETTY FUCKING RELEVANT TO ME!

Calm yourself, Jeff.

NO! I’M AS FUCKING CALM AS I AM GOING TO G-

AAAAAH!!!!!!!

MY HEAD!

I remember looking up as I was falling…

The violent me smiling

THEN DISAPPEARING?!

Th-the girls name was…

Violet?

I-I don’t understand?

I think I murdered her?!

Right?

The night at the bar…it was Halloween…

I’m not a detective, I just went as one.

Go on, Jeff.

I was drinking heavily

She was into me

I let her go home after she said she could go alone

Then…next thing I remember, I’ve killed her & buried her.

You’re positive you weren’t conscious during the murder?

Yes, yes, I’m positive.

I woke up the next day after burying her & tried to call her.

She never picked up.

I went looking for her, she wasn’t home…

There was a note, addressed to me.

It had a photo of the killing

On the back it read:

You did this…

IT WAS EVEN A PHOTO OF ME WITH HER DISMEMBERED BODY!

I-I don’t remember any of it though…

I think I got in my car

I was speeding…

It was distraught…

I lose control

Then, I’m in the hospital.

It’s okay, we’ve heard enough, Jeff.

We believe you are suffering from a condition that hasn’t been diagnosed.

What?

There’s a theme of this throughout your life.

Judging your memories & your emotions throughout the interpretation of such…

We believe this is something you had no control over.

Furthermore, we’ve deemed you a case for return.

What do you mean?

Your memories will be wiped, or rather, buried.

Huh?

Your soul always keeps memories but, upon returning to a new life…

Souls do not always have access to such memories.

You will essentially be what some call reincarnated.

Your soul will begin anew as a child in a new life & upon Death you will be judged again.

Wait, that’s real?

You will not remember this.

Good luck with your 2nd chance, Jeff…

_________________________________

Did we choose wisely?

I believe we did.

You’re positive?

Yes, I believe the evidence overall as well as his past history says as much…

Do you doubt the choice?

I believe he has a condition but…

Did you consider the night of the murder he’d been drinking heavily?

At best it helped trigger another episode…

One which results in the death of an innocent soul

At worst, the alcohol is the reason entirely & he wasn’t having an episode 

But…

Murdered someone because he has homicidal tendencies…

Our job is to judge based off the evidence given.

Has he ever shown any sign of being homicidal outside of these episodes?

The best ones, hide it well.

I’m not doubting your judgment per say…

We however, have a huge responsibility & I want you to keep in mind our decisions

…They have consequences…

-The Emotion Room: Subject 4-

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