*Loud Buzzer*
*Woman shoots up*
Are you awake, Subject 1?
Wh-what? My name is Sydney!
Are you awake, Subject 1?
Wh-Where am I?!
……………………….
Are you awake, Subject 1?
Please answer the question
FUCK YOU! WHO ARE YOU AND WHERE AM I?!
Stress elevation noted
Subject 1 is clearly awake
Today Subject 1 we will begin testing
You are in The Emotion Room
You need do nothing, the testing will begin momentarily…
What?! My…NAME….IS SYDN-AAAAAAH!!!!!!!!
Subject 1 has fallen to her knees
Appears to be experiencing migraines or some kind of mental break
Noted…
Mom?! Why are you covered in red Mom?
N-NO! NONONONONONO! WHY?!
Tell me you didn’t do it again MOM?!
You were supposed to be okay!
The doctors said…
*crying*
They said you WERE FINE!
WHY WOULD YOU KILL YOURSELF?!
I-i-if we hurry….maybe we can stop the bleeding!
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Subject 1 appears to be fully encompassed in her memories
Notable emotions: Grief & Helplessness.
Yes, 911! Please send someone right NOW!
My-M….MY MOM HAS SLIT HER WRISTS!
I just got back from school and…I DON’T KNOW WHY SHE’D DO THIS?!
I-I’m not sure where Dad is?
Work, I think.
Y-wait, I, I think I hear something.
OMG! WHY?!!!!!!!!!!
My Dad?! He-What’s he doing home?
HE’S DEAD! HIS FUCKING CHEST IS OPEN AND THERE’S BLOOD AN-
YOU FUCKING STAY CALM!
SEND SOMEONE ALREADY!
*Sobbing uncontrollably*
MY WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY IS DEAD! I WON’T STAY CALM!
I have……NO ONE! DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT?!
I-I just can’t do this…NOT ANYMORE! NO!
I-I’m going to kill myself…
I’ll do it with knife my Mom used to kill my Dad and then herself…
Goodbye…
*Slice*
*Thud*
O-OH MY FUCKING GOD!
I KILLED MYSELF?!
Mom & Dad…WHY?!
WHY WOULD SHE KILL DAD?!
S-
*Has trouble breathing*
She…
She was fine.
Perfectly fine after a year.
I-I don’t understand this
Why would you show me this?
What is this place?
What’s the purpose?!
I feel faint.
*Passes Out*
*Loud Buzzer*
WHAT?!
Subject 1, you are experiencing the following:
Grief
Confusion
Trauma
PTSD
Helplessness
How do you feel?
How do I feel?
FUCK YOU! THAT’S HOW!
Anger added to list of emotions
Subject 1, why did you choose suicide?
Wouldn’t you? I had nothing left to live for?
MY ENTIRE FAMILY WAS DEAD!
I went to school that morning and everything was fine…
I don’t understand why
DO YOU KNOW WHY?!
This is about you Subject 1
Why choose death?
It…it was all too much. I couldn’t process it.
I had nothing left to live for.
Noted.
Subject 1 believed they had nothing left to live for
Now playing future that could have been
Subject 1 would have had
A husband in the next 4 years
Inspired and saved 300 lives through speaking about her families tragedy
A baby boy
An eventual Nobel Prize
Lived to be a healthy 120
Deceased peacefully in sleep
Gone to Heaven
Now noting: Fear, Regret, Sorrow, Realization, Terror At Future Eternity
Subject 1, results will be noted.
Emotional Analysis Complete:
Subject 1 felt she had nothing left to live for
Her 17th Birthday started fine
Coming home, she discovers Mom dying
Suicide
Calls 911
Pleads with them
Hears noise
Late spasm from deceased father
Father dead
Hope lost
Suicide by knife
Notable:
Subject 1 had no other living family
Likely would have wound up in foster care
Would have met future husband in system
Subject 1 had no way of knowing future
Suicides typically transfer to lower level facility
Transfer Recommendation:
Hell
-The Emotion Room: Subject 1-
sinisterdarksoul 
This is so fucking sensible. I mean not the suicide. But the future😂.
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This is so much sensible. I mean not the suicide. But the future…😂
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Nah, it was just waiting for me to moderate and approve the comment lol. It always waits for moderation the first time someone comments on the blog. After that though, you won’t have to worry about moderation. Sorry about that. XP
Thank you though for the kind words. 🙂
I am glad you enjoyed it. ^_^
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Oh. I didn’t know it sorry. Don’t approve the other ones. They’re just copied😂 I thought the comments would show up even before approval. At least to me. Loll!
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Just the very first time someone comments ever, I have it set so that I have to approve it because otherwise any random spambot could just go spamming it. I didn’t approve the others.
No worries! ^_^
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Haha It’s completely fine. I’ll read your other entries too when I come back from school😂 will try to read all.
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Okay I think there’s some problem. -_- I’ve commented three times but they just disappear
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Interesting… You never know what the future may hold…
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Indeed you do not.
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Compelling and very powerful. You didn’t decorate or judge anything at the beginning, Left the reader to go through the journey with all its mix emotions til the end. Complete circle that we don’t have the chance to see while we are in our present life. Only faith get us to endure difficulties and trial with the hope of a better future…here or hereafter. Good work, and great message.
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Thank you for taking the time to read and for your thoughts. I really just like to let people interpret things as they wish to with the poems I write.
I’m grateful when people read something and get something from it though. Even if it is simply a temporary escape. I think that storytelling is beautiful because it gives people so much! ^_^
I am truly grateful for your time and I hope you have an amazing week! ^_^
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I agree with you completely. The effect and the benefit of the poem and the words are greater when it is interpreted by oneself; rather than spoon-fed to the reader bluntly. Thank you and great week to you 🙂
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Intense…Your writing made me feel as if I was in the same room with Sydney. I feel certain that young people who may consider suicide might pause and think from this story…
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Well, it impacted me quite a bit writing it. I’m glad you enjoyed it and I’m super happy to hear from you! ^_^
I hope when I write things to make people feel like they are there (generally). If I can connect with the reader on that kind of level, I am quite happy.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read! 😀
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