The things I do, I do for you
All the love and care
How I tried to build you up when you were down
Only to be ignored the moment he came back into your life
Did it feel good that night when you took your knife
Burying it deep inside?!
Did you love the way the blood flowed as my heart slowly died
Killing me slowly, the entire fucking time?!
I felt every slow stab
Part of me loved it
I am not gonna lie
Every emotional moment, a new twist of the knife
Slowly cutting me up inside
As you happily ended my life
One beautifully placed word at a time!
I know you loved it, I saw it in your eyes
The day I died!
You played so coy and so sweet
Oh, you were the perfect killer really
Acting innocent, playing so kind as can be
You lured me in, building me perfectly again
I knew it then, though I couldn’t stop
You were always going to kill me in the end
My sweet poison, my beautiful addiction
Twisting my every emotion with your words
Playing me like an idiot who just needed to think you cared
I’m sure it was quite beautiful really
I knew the entire time, you were spewing nothing but lies
However, I couldn’t stop
I needed to know you were there
I needed to pretend you cared
Love, the most dangerous emotion of all
I couldn’t stop caring
What is really fucked up, is how you stabbed me slowly
AGAIN AND AGAIN
Shredding me to tiny pieces
Psychologically toying with me
All the time never truly giving a care
I knew it, but why could I not stop then?
Why couldn’t I run away?
I knew you were the death of me and yet still…
Here I was, trying to be there for you…
You were in my very mind
In my soul
I couldn’t get rid of you!
You were the sweetest drug of all
I, an addict!
That’s why, as I died
I looked you in the eyes
Wanting an answer for how one could be
So full of manipulation and deceit?
So charismatic, that they could bring me to stay knowing
They were going to kill me in the end
To still want to care, letting you take the knife to me
A willing sacrifice
Death, no real escape
For after you stabbed me in the heart
Laughing all the way
Every piece of the pain as you picked apart my flesh
Some part of me still cared
I was still addicted to wanting your love
Even knowing I never had it
So after I died
I came back to get him
Slowly watching him at night
Getting to truly understand the one you used to toy with me
The other puppet in your life
The one worth killing me for
Then when the moment was right
I came to him one night
I recorded every thing…
IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING!
The way I chained him to the chair
Then took my own knife
Slowly licking his face
Cutting him to pieces
Oh I stared him in the eyes
The shock on his face when he realized
His death was at the hands of his best friend
The one he was betrayed by in the end
A long dead ghost
Now I slowly picked apart his flesh
Embracing the drops of blood that came from every cut
Letting him bleed!
Tearing him apart slowly!
I made sure everything was so perfect in the end
Making sure he knew how deeply personal this was for me
I killed him VERY FUCKING SLOWLY!
I WATCHED THE LIFE LEAVE FROM HIS EYES!
Then to my surprise
You were already there
Watching the entire time
You were filled with so much glee
The perfect killer having turned me…
Into a monster just like you
Once again, you had won
I was yours to do with what you wanted
Even in death you had won
Manipulating all you come across
You slowly whispered in my ear
You’re eternally mine to do with what I want
Look at the monster I’ve made you become
Be a good pet my dear
Feel the sweet anguish I still bring to you
Take the knife to yourself again and again
Feel me slowly killing you
Do this eternally my sweet
Die again and again for me
You are my plaything in death as you were in life
Mine to happily toy with eternally
Your Sweet Addiction
-My Sweet Addiction-