Do you understand madness?
Do you understand pain?
Do you understand the unending need
The clawing at ones soul?
That incessant whispering in your ear?
I hear them every waking second
I hear them in my dreams
I quite often hear them constantly saying so many things
It is maddening, it is quite often what brings insomnia my way
Do you truly understand what I say?
They never stop talking!
The voices in my head
I write their needs
I write what they plead
I don’t plan any of it out
They tell me everything I need to know
They tell me trust them
People will come
They will read the madness in your words
They will feel the insanity gripping at your mind
People love good madness they say
They love a great story
They claim to love the happy ending
Quite often you see
Some dark part of them
Loves the guts, loves the gore
Loves it when it ends so bleak
So they tell me
I ask them to give me a break
I promise I’ll tell as many of their stories as I can
I just need one day with which not to write
One night of peaceful rest
NO! They say…
I feel them in my soul
Surrounding me like a swarm
Telling me their maddening crimes
The sins of their past
Those they left behind
Every time I think to stop
I hear them there
Keep writing they say
Tell our stories and let the world see and judge us for what we are
What we have become
So I write, write and write some more
Every post I make
They whisper in my ear
Now write some more
The times are far worse when the voices do fall silent
It is then my muse (or so she calls herself) begins to speak
Oh the things she tells me are far worse
Far more violent
Simultaneously she will tell me the worst most vile filth!
Then in the same sentence she speaks pure bliss
In some sick, twisted way I find myself bound to her and her to me
She is telling me to say nothing more of her for the time being
Claiming the world is not ready to hear her story
So it is I must end this poem
Eternally writing the stories of others
Never truly alone
Now that you have had a mere glimpse of the madness within
Do you really still want to know more?
More about me, more about them, more about the one
The maker of nightmares
Sweeter than the sweetest sins
-The Mad Writers Journal: #1: Say Hello To The Madness Within-